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This is me, this is real. Sunday, April 4, 2010
Today, I had a fight. With Mama. I don't know. Sometimes, I am so pissed off with her. I don't know what she wants from me. Really. I try my very best to change. I am not really a bad person. Yes, I am smoke still. Yes, I used to club and drink. Not anymore. Maybe, people hate me. But, I don't care. I don't hate anyone in particular, maybe, sometimes. But, that doesn't mean I jaga tepi kain orang. Sometimes, it annoys me why she has to compare myself with everyone else. Yes. I am your daughter. But, aren't you suppose to trust me first ? I dress the way I am because I have originalities. But, that doesn't mean that your daughter here is a low class whore. Everything that I wear, you criticized me. Yes, I have a an unpropotionate body and a humongous butt but, I am not stupid. I wore maxi dresses and you said it didn't suit me. I wore knee length dresses and you said it makes my butt looks bigger. I wore short dresses and you yelled at the top of your voice. I wore jeans and you said it's ugly. I wore tights and you said I look as if I am nude and bottomless. I wore shorts and you still commented on me saying that I am pretending to be "Chee-na" in a way. I wore blouses and T-shirts and you say they look tight. I wore skirts and you say they are too shirt. I wore knee length skirts and you say the shirt doesn't match and etc. What the hell siia ?!!
Then, what am I suppose to wear ? Birthday suit pun cantik. Lagi tak rimas. And you keep threatening to throw all my clothes away. Throw lahh. I know you threw most them anyway. I don't care. I am just going to keep buying. Because, in my eyes, I am never perfect. I don't like being forced. Because, honestly, my heart is not open for change yet. People may think I am childish. Behind my back, they might just say "Pakai je uhh tudung and when you keluar you take it off." Sejahat-jahat nya aq, I am not stupid. I can lie to other people. But, I don't lie to God. Walaupun, aq niie tidak warak ke apa ke tapi aq ada pergi madrasah part time, okae ? Hahaha. Ustazah aq sendiri kata, kalau rasa tak nak pakai tudung jangan paksa. Kecuali pergi masjid ke apa ke, mesti lahh pakai tudung kan. Atau pun shawl lahh the least. Buat apa kalau depan orang step alim tertutup macam dekat North Pole tapi belakang orang kw durjana. Kw bunuh orang, kw minum arak macam besok arak tuu extinct, kw buat maksiat, kw ada selubung tattoo satu badan kw semua atau kw murtad. Puas hati tuu tudung kw bukak dan bakar tudung tuu. Dengan muka kw sekali kw bakar. Memalukan je. I promised myself, if ever she forces me to wear tudung, I will move out. Kw nak panggil aq childish ke apa ke, I don't care. Memang, aq childish. Biar aq berdosa ke apa pada Tuhan sebab aq tak dengar kata Mama. Aq tak menyusah kan orang and bila dekat akhirat niie biar aq yang tanggung sendiri dosa-dosa aq. Tapi, aq tetap pada pendirian aq. Maybe, Insyallah, one day aq akan sarung tudung. Tapi, now not lahh ehhk. And no point forcing me. Sebab, sekarang hati belum ikhlas menerima nya and aq mesti akan memberontak. And, tak semesti nya orang pakai tudung tuu baik. Same goes to tak semesti nya orang tak pakai tudung tuu jahat. So, whatever. Off, I go.
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