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21 December 1989, Thursday.
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She expresses herself through fashion, food, her lyrical writings, music and photography.
She organized her first gig, The Cynosure Theatre at the Singpore Art's House when she was barely 16 years old.
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Did she mention that she has an obsession and addiction to a one-weird-eight-inch fetish ?



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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Festive season.



I am a happy, happy girl.

I totally enjoy shopping sprees.

Well, which woman doesn't.

Hehehe.

I bought a bag from Guess ? by Marciano and I am extremely loving it.

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I totally adore my new bag.



Nerd boy says he knows that I am very excited to wear all my new accesories.

Hahaha.

Smart boy.

I really can't wait to flaunt them.

I also bought 2 pairs of high heels.

Dear just shook his head disbelievingly as he looked at the way I spent my money.

I guess he is just shocked by the fact.

(:

Well, I enjoy my materials once in a while.

Anyways, I'm glad we are sort of back together again.

I do not wish for us to fight anymore because I wil end up crying.

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I have a sudden weird obsession for daisies.
Aren't they beautiful ?



Right now, I am feeling extremely sleepy at work.

I can't wait to go home and sleep.

I am still contemplating whether I should get myself a haircut.

Hmm ...

I am totally broke at the moment and I just got my pay yesterday.

Hahaha.

Like, what the fuck.

I totally cleared my debts that I have with Mama.

Set aside cash for Aidilfitri and my daily spendings.

Haiyoh.

Money easily comes and easily go.

Huhuhu.

I will be heading to the bazaar today with dearest cousin, Nina today.

We will be doing henna on our hands and I can't wait to get some simple accessories to match my Aidilfitri outfit.

Everything at the bazaar later will be sold at maximum discount so anyone who plans on doing a last minute shopping spree better hurry up.

Work is so boring.

I wish I can go home right now but I can't.

It's still very early.

That nerd boy is already home.

I wish I could sleep on my work station now.

I am so sleepy.

Fuck.

Yay.

Today is the last day of puasa.

Wee !


(Fly away.)

Monday, September 29, 2008

Things will never be the same.



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I am not in the mood for Aidilfitri all of a sudden.

I am still brooding over what happened yesterday.

I t wasn't my fault at all.

Even though we are in slightly good terms, I feel alot of changes are coming ahead in our relationship.

I am just afraid.

He told me he has been hurt before and he is doesn't want history to repeat itself.

I do not understand why he actually assumed that I am that kind of person.

Is there a label on my forehead which says that ?

Honestly, I am not.

Eventhough I am barely 19 this year, I am not someone who doesn't think before I act or speak.

I understand by being irrational, there will be dire consequences to all my actions.

I am not like everyone else you know.

Don't you realise that ?

I am deeply scarred.

But, I guess wounds will take time to heal.

I've been hurt before but they made me stronger.

Would I be going through another bottomless fall once again ?

Whatever that I went through last night reminded me so much of the ex-boyfriend, Haidir.

Would I be going through that rough ride again ?

Will I hide in my room for 6 months crying endlessly again when I knew he wasn't coming back to me ?

I really hated that feeling.

I just want someone to love me whole heartedly and I promise that person I will love him the same way.

I reminisced about the past memories and I realise love do hurt.

But humans, fall in love time and time again.

The main component in a relationship is trust.

I am getting a hunch that he doesn't trust me anymore.

Last night, he didn't even wanted to give me a chance.

He told me I didn't deserve it ?

How can I not deserve a chance when I wasn't in the wrong at all.

Why are you doubting me ?

I realise that I needed him more than he needed me after being together for awhile.

I don't know what lies ahead.

I expect alot of changes between us.

I just hope that those changes are positive ones.

I don't know how to live with this anymore.

Will he treat me differently in the days, months or years to come ?

I am not sure.

But what I know is, I have never regretted being with him.

I will never stop loving him and my feelings will never change.

I am so afraid that he will really leave me.

Must it be this soon ?

Will I go back to my old ways again when he's not there for me ?

I suddenly feel I am losing my sense of motivation.

So much has happened this month.

I am not sure if I can really take it anymore.

Friends have told me that I am not and I can't give up.

I have to be a fighter.

I have a feeling that someone out there is not happy about our relationship.

Why ?

Can't you just let me be happy for once ?

I guess all of this is a challenge from up above.

I realise there will be alot of obstacles ahead of us.

I will take it all with a smile on my face.

Synnta loves Latiif.

:(

Tags replied :

i m a g : She's my colleague. Stop staring at my friends. Lol. She's getting married next year. (:


(Fly away.)

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Siapa kah Synnta tanpa Latiif.



Apa artinya cinta ?

Tiba-tiba engkau ada
Kemudian engkau hadir
Laksana kerdil ku memalu
Lihat aku lebih dalam

Di mata mu ku melihat
Ada cinta yang tersirat
Tirani hati merebak

Barangkali aku salah
Ku terdiam bukan bisu
Ku tahu engkau besar malu
Tutupi rasa gelisah

Biar saja waktu nanti
Yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersama mu, aku senang

Belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
Aku lah yang pantas untuk kau cintai
Di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Diri ku tanpa mu apa artinya cinta ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Cinta ini sudah menelan waktu ku
Siang malam hanya untuk fikirkan engkau
Sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Diri ku tanpa mu apa artinya cinta ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Biar saja waktu nanti
Yang menikmati kisah ini
Bersama mu, aku senang

Belum juga kah kau menyadarinya
Aku lah yang pantas untuk kau cintai
Di bawah langit biru aku bersumpah
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Diri ku tanpa mu apa artinya cinta ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Arti cinta ini sudah menelan waktu ku
Siang malam hanya untuk fikirkan engkau
Sejuta kali aku berani bersumpah
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Diriku tanpa mu apa artinya cinta ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥



(Fly away.)

Saturday, September 27, 2008

I fucking hate you !



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The earlier half on the night when on smoothly.

We had both bowling and pool sessions at the Singapore Orchid Country Club with Jan and Ellie.

Did I mention I have never bowled in my life ever.

Hehehe.

So, technically I sucked at it.

Anyways, dear bought me my favourite magazines when he made a trip to Johor last week.

I can't wait to go home and read them.

Thanks alot, love.

Then, we headed to Serangoon road for a naan fiesta.

It was yummy.

The day ended short as dear was tired.

He had to work earlier today and he has to report early for camp tomorrow.

Not to mention he has dragon boat as well.

We lepak-ed at the usual bench before proceeding home at 2AM in the morning.

Here is the horrible part.

He thinks I have a second boyfriend.

This all because of this unknown fucker who gave me a missed call when we were at the bowling alley.

When dear called that fucker back, the person picked up but did not say anything.

When I called him back the second time, the person rejected my call.

Now, we are fighting because of this.

Dear was checking my mobile phone when we were having supper.

He claimed that the person called on 19th September as well.

He jumped to a conclusion that I was hiding something from him.

Fuck.

I don't even know who this fucking idiot is !

I checked my phone like 20 times but I couldn't find any records of the person calling on the 19th but there was a missed call on the 20th.

Dear was upset with the dates as well.

He claimed that his eyes did not lie to him.

Well, neither am I.

I can't stop that person from calling me.

I seriously do not even know who the person is.

Demi Allah, aq tak tau siapa yang sengaja nak buat aq gini macam.

I tried so hard to convince him but he wouldn't believe me.

I don't know what to do.

I stare at my ceiling hoping for an answer yet all I got was forlorn silence.

How could this be ?

I truthfully and honestly did not play behind his back.

Kalau betul aq nak main belakang kw, buat apa itu hari kita go bazaar outing dengan my family.

Buat apa I bilang semua orang yang you are my boyfriend.

Kalau kita break, aq yang malu dengan keluarga.

Bukan kw.

Geram, sial.

Chee bye uhh.

Fuck that asshole.

Kerana kw yang aq tak tau siapa, aq nya relationship rosak.

Pukimak nya anak sundal.

Kalau aq tau kw siapa yang nak main kan aq, kw siap.

Aq mesti rembat kw cukup-cukup nya.

Aq benci kw.

Whoever the fuck you are.

You ruin my fucking everything.

Because of you all this misunderstandings happen.

I want my boyfriend back but my boyfriend doesn't want me.

I love my boyfriend alot but I am afraid my boyfriend will not love me like before.

I am afraid he will leave me cause I don't want to leave him, ever.

Why wouldn't you fucking believe me.

I am being honest and truthful.

Aq nak pukul pukimak yang buat aq nya relationship rosak tapi aq tak tau orang tuu siapa.

All I can do now is cry and hug my everdearest Bobby.

But Bobby reminds me of him so much.

Fuck.

I want Latiif !

Chee bye uhh.

Aq mati lagi bagus.

Aq tak nak celebrate Aidilfitri !

Semua sepasang dengan dia.

Kalau dahh gaduh gini apa nak sepasang.

Bingit nya.

Aaarrrggghhh ...


(Fly away.)

Friday, September 26, 2008

Death Daisy.



Last night's trip to Cik Ita's home was fun.

I was her cookie making soldier.

I helped her to mould the batter into cute cookie shapes.

Cik Ita's cookies were cute and small.

Mine was round and fat macam Latep.

Huhuhu.

Jangan marah.

:D

Aq buat cookies pun ingat kw tau.

Hehehe.

We gossip-ed alot.

Nerd boy kata I will grow up to be a very busybody makcik.

No lorr.

I bukan makcik.

I am too young to be a makcik.

:D

Anyways, my health condition is deteoriating.

I don't know what is bloody wrong with my immune system.

Haish.

I have never felt so sick after so long.

I feel so weak and helpless.

Last night, I couldn't take it anymore.

I cried silently in the bus on my way back home.

I am really afraid.

What if history repeats itself again ?

Then, I collapse on the floor.

The next moment, all that surrounds me will be bright white lights.

All I could feel was sharp pains through my body.

How could this be ?

Why was he stabbing me on my chest ?

All I could see was darkness.

What if I couldn't wake up ever again ?

Andainya Synnta Claus tiada lagi di sisi mu.


(Fly away.)

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Breathless.


Tags replied :

Latep : Stop it seyy you. Yes, I am sick. Do not call me "Des" lahh. Macam "desk" tau. Panggil Synnta sudah lahh. Macam selalu. Huhuhu. You lagi nak step panggil you "L" pulak. Terlalu short form lahh. Panggil you "Nerd Boy" sudah. Kw part kutuk orang, number one. Suruh nyanyi, step bisu. Chee tan. Betul pe I cakap, suara you lagi sedap dari dia. Tak betul ke I cakap ? Abeh, nak nyanyi whisper dekat telinga I. A'ah siol. Dia bawak tuu lagu sampai vein kat kepala dia semua terkeluar. Huhuhu. Pastu nak bawak lagu very high pitch. He spoiled my fucking song lorr. Next time, we go karaoke I make sure I sumbat tuu microphone dalam mulut you. That guy very mat rep seyy you. Brother love you. Hehehe. I hate you nerd boy. Where is my duit raya ? (:
Fion : You lahh. Always so busy. Don't know how to call me uhh. I don't know how many times I go bazaar liao. Hehehe.
Nafitria : Love you too, adeq. Btw, kakak dahh link tau. Yipee.
Bie : Outing was fun, darling. Kita nya outing pulak bila ehhk. Dari itu hari plan pastu tak plan. Huhuhu.
Izah : Tapi I nya maha boncit seyy. Got one time this auntie thought I pregnant ! Ish. Malu seyy. Niie semua because of liquor and beer. )':

Today is like any ordinary day.

Except for the fact that I am sick.

I have to come to work because apparently, after bumming my fat ass for 2 straight days on the sofa, I have become slightly non-functional.

I was pratically dying, not because I have to consistently blow the germs out of my nose but because there was nothing to watch on TV, the computer was too far away and there was nothing to eat as it is the fasting month.

So, all I could do was sleep.

Nerd boy woke me at the usual times but today, I really didn't feel like waking up.

I was also having difficulties breathing.

I hate this feeling.

Every little movement that I made was with caution.

If I took that step a little too quickly, I will be out of breath and sweating.

I was really annoyed by the time I was done getting ready for work.

Boss wanted me to call and set up appointments but I guess I will start tele-marketing only next week.

I sound like shit now.

I think when I call all these potential clients, they will probably hang up on me.

Suara aq macam kuda seyy nyari.

Buruk lorr.

-_-"

Fuck.

I am still coughing very badly.

You know what, niie semua Texas nya pasal.

Chee bye.

So much as to throat infection.

Haiyah.

I can't wait for my pay day.

The Guess? beg is my top most priority followed by a pair of heels.

Then, I am going to cut my hair shorter !

I saw Pink's new video clip and I am loving that hair but I won't dye it blonde.

Blonde is so merepek unless I am Caucasian.

Hehehe.

Tuu baru hot stuff.

Kalau dahh Melayu, rambut nak blonde or gold dahh macam pepek siol.

Anyways, I plan on going bazaar the last day of puasa so that I can do that henna thingy on my hand.

Banyak hasil aq bulan niie.

Huhuhu.

Banyak plan.

This year pulak, aq nak kena kasi duit raya dekat monyet-monyet niie.

Haiyah.

Leceh lahh kalau orang dahh bekerja niie.

:D

Kan best kalau aq masih school lagi.

Hulur tangan je dapat duit.

Okae lahh.

Sampai di sini sahaja.

Getting ready to leave the office and head to Cik Ita's house.

I'm going over to collect sujee, my favourite hari raya kuih.

Dear, kw nya sujee pahit.

Huhuhu.

Bye.


(Fly away.)

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Infectious.



I am still lying on the same spot as yesterday.

I am still sick.

Chee bye.

No mood to update my blog.

Bye.


(Fly away.)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Cold sweat.



I cannot believe the fact that I am lying motionless on my sofa.

I have been sitting on this same spot for the past 3 hours.

What can I do.

I do not even have the energy to do anything.

It really sucks.

It's been while since I got really sick.

The funny thing is I am not down with fever.

It's a very bad case of flu and I am also coughing.

I think I used like a couple hundreds of sheets of tissue.

How can a 19 year old girl store so much mucus and phlegm in her tiny body ?

I wish I could do something.

The only time I got up to do something was to eat or go to the bathroom.

Other than that, I am lying here still.

It's very boring seyy.

Nak keluar pun tak larat.

Mendak nak mampus.

The doctor gave me alot of medicine to eat.

I can't stand them.

They taste so bitter.

Eww.

Not to mention, they make me feel drowsy.

Instead of watching TV, the TV will watch me.

Sleeping and snoring ...

LOL.

By the way, I dislike it so much bila you keluar dengan Rus.

I fucking hate him but I can't say anything sebab he is your friend.

I have never met the most unsensitive, uncaring, selfish, male chauvinist pig who acts and thinks like a 5 year old kid in my entire life.

I am still shocked and disgusted by his actions at Dbl O even though the incident happened way back.

Will you please stop dragging furniture across the floor, hammering stuffs and playing music after 12 midnight ?!!

Chee bye.

Orang pun nak sleep lahh, pukimak !


(Fly away.)

Monday, September 22, 2008

Bumming.



What a boring day today is.

At the moment I am suffering from a writer's block because I don't know what to update.

Currently, I feel that germs are circling me.

I wouldn't be surprise if I fall sick all of a sudden.

Synnta Claus nyari tak puasa ehhk.

Huhuhu.

It must be the soup ekor I had for sahur earlier today.

Puking is so not fun.

Especially when you think you saw bits and pieces of meat.

Eww.

So, I decided not to fast.

Hehehe.

I can't wait to go home.

)':

I suddenly don't feel well.

I have so many things to do but I don't feel like doing.

I guess I will update later.

Bye, all.



(Fly away.)

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Twins.



Huhuhu.

I am still shagged from yesterday's event.

Nerd boy woke me up with his text message when he was done with dragon boat.

This bugger text me and asked me to go back to bed.

The nerve of him.

When I woke up, I never felt so drenched in my life before.

The whole bed was wet because I was sweating so much.

Is the weather hot or what ?

Nerd boy was stuck at Beach Road because he had to collect his name tag.

He actually waited 2 hours.

The uncle who tended the store was out for lunch.

My poor darling had to wait.

Tuu uncle pergi makan lunch ke masak lunch sekali ?

Huhuhu.

Dear bought me something which he didn't want to tell me what.

So, I went to take a quick shower before I meet him.

He actually suggested not to take a shower.

You expect me to meet you all sweating ?

Kw nak pe cium ketiak aq.

Hehehe.

So, when he was at the void deck, he passed me this yellow coloured T-shirt.

Ohhs my god.

Nerd boy actually bought me a Sponge Bob Square Pants T-shirt.

Huhuhu.

He has a pair too lahh.

Cute kan ?

I can't wait to wear it sepasang with him.

Thanks alot, dear.

Confirm cute kan bila kita keluar makan and kita pakai same baju.

Tak sabar.

I love my nerd boy.

Okae lahh.

Time to watch TV and slack while that nerd boy works his ass of at work.

Till then, loves.


(Fly away.)

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Wonderland.



Today's outing went on according as planned.

Except for the fact that nerd boy is so lemau during the earlier part of the trip slightly before buka.

Nak kata tak sleep dahh terlebih sleep pun.

Huhuhu.

He fetched me from home and we headed to our favourite eatery to grab chappatti and thosai masala.

Yummy.

Berat lorr my beg as we had to stuff everything inside.

I knew my bag couldn't take the weight of the deliciousness, so I put it on Baby Fireblade's tank.

Bau dia memanggil tau during the ride.

Next, we headed to Obek's kedai at City Plaza as the original plan was to tapau food and buka over there.

Nerd boy was so quiet and shy.

Hehehe.

He kept saying I sabotaged him into going out for this outing.

Hehehe.

For your information, I didn't lorr.

I told you already that we are going buka with Cik Ita and the family.

Tapi, yang part buka kat kedai Obek tuu bukan I yang plan lahh.

Hehehe.

Kenyang nak mampus, okae ?

Banyak sangat makan.

We had to wait for Mama, because my family decided to buka at home.

Irwin sakat me alot lorr.

That naughty boy.

Macam nak gigit telinga dia.

Huhuhu.

He kept giving me cheeky faces and he actually main darah with me !

(:

Gatal kan ?

I like cause he is very cute.

Chasing around the store to catch this cheeky monster.

Irwin was trying very hard to capture nerd boy's attention.

As usual, nerd boy was acting shy.

Next stop, Geylang Bazaar.

Super packed full of people lorr.

What can I say, it is a Saturday.

Tapi banyak mats and minahs.

Meluat lahh tengok.

We browsed a couple of shops before I made my decision to buy a black and white kebaya at Kreasi Indah which costs $110.

It is hotness.

Despite the fact that the baju was the smallest size available, it was actually the display piece that the mannequin was wearing, I still have to alter it.

The baju is simply too big for me.

I love the kain.

It is uber cool.

Hehehe.

It was cheaper than previous year's outfit which I bought but I guess it is alright.

Hehehe.

Cik Ita keep saying that nerd boy is the boss man.

So, whatever that I buy must consult him first.

Hehehe.

Actually, the reason being why I have to consult so many people is because I am very fickle minded about my kebaya outfits.

I had to ask him which outfit is nice as after all, I will be coupl-ing with him and I want to look good and not selekeh for Aidilfitri.

Anyways, next we made a trip to Aniz at Paya Lebar MRT as it is the dude's turn to look for their Aidilfitri outfits.

Dear bought a black colour outfit to match mine.

I cannot accept the fact that lelaki nya baju Aidilfitri murah nak mampus lorr.

Si monyet niie spent like not more that $40 on his baju.

Tak fair kan.

He actually went to this shop somewhere located in the bazaar to customize his own brooch.

Sometimes, I feel that nerd boy accessorise more than me.

Hehehe.

He also bought a hair clip for me.

Hehehe.

Thank you, dear.

Nak sepasang kata kan.

Finally, this year will be a proper Aidilfitri after awhile.

Wee.

Earlier on today, after we shopped at Aniz for dear's outfit, he bumped into Lood and his cliques.

There was this girl who look vaguely familiar.

God !

It is actually my buddy, Zita.

Huhuhu.

She was with her scandal who is actually Lood's friend who also happens to be nerd boy's friend.

What a small world.

(:

Zita, pandai ehhk kw tipu dengan diorang pasal nama kw.

Anyways, we met them up again after we are done with our shopping spree.

The family left first and we were free to walk around and smoke.

Hehehe.

Depan mak I, pandai kw smoke secretly.

Huhuhu.

Next, we headed to Ming Arcade for a karaoke session at Cash Studio.

Suara aq sekarang rock nak mampus.

Nyanyi lagu terlalu high pitch.

Huhuhu.

Tapi, nerd boy tak nyanyi lorr.

Step malu.

Padahal suara you lagi sedap dari si Zita nya scandal.

Suara pecah siol.

He sang my favourite song which never fail to make me cry as I reminisce about my past.

Tapi, bila tuu mamat nyanyi, I realise that song isn't that sad anymore.

Dia rosak kan lagu orang lorr.

Hehehe.

We karaoke-d until 3AM in the morning.

Woot.

Dear, asal you bawak Baby Fireblade laju semacam ?

Okae lahh.

Sampai di sini.

Nak sahur lahh pastu nak sleep.

Tata.


(Fly away.)

Friday, September 19, 2008

Pocketful of sunshine.



Last night, Mama called me fat.

Well, fat in the tummy though.

Cik Ita said I slimmed down when I started working this new job.

But, I still got the tummy issues.

Damn.

Previously, when I was working at Panalpina World (S) Transport, I ate like a starving man.

If elephants are edible, I'd swallow one.

But, recently I only eat lunch and dinner.

That's it.

Then, I am off to Dream Land.

I guess my appetite is decreasing.

Nerd boy used to call me a monster eater.

Yet, now he says I don't eat that much.

Which is technically and theoratically good beacause that means losing weight.

Woot.

TGIF, baby.

I feel so sleepy right now.

Huhuhu.

I reached home at 2AM earlier today.

I feel so tired.

I met up with that nerd boy and we headed to Mustafa Centre.

That was at like 10.30PM last night.

We made the trip all the way to Mustafa Centre so that the nerd boy could get himself a pair of boxers.

Nak choose boxers pun punya lahh susah.

-_-"

That's it.

I made him buy me a Silky Girl pressed powder in Natural shade because I was broke and the one I have at home was almost used up.

Hehehe.

Then we headed to this 24HOUR eatery which serves Indian cuisine.

Chappatti and keema was yummy.

Mmm ...

That was our original plan for the day but someone had to ruin it.

I fucking hate you, jerk.

Honestly, we had to have chappatti for supper.

It's just this weird craving thingy that both of us have lately.

Woot.

Both of us cleaned up the plate tremendously.

We decided to share a chappatti set meal because that nerd boy had mee goreng and I had nasi ayam goreng and tau suan for buka puasa.

Kenyang, babe.

Hehehe.

After that we headed to a place somewhere only we know.

I hate our new toy !

Tak feeling langsung uhh.

(:

Dear bought for me magazines when he headed to Johore Bahru last week to top up petrol.

Wee.

Aq tak sabar nak baca.

Hehehe.

Thanks for last night, dear.

I had fun.

Right now, I am struggling to keep my eyes wide open.

Thank goodness blogging has always been my cup of coffee.

So, I am extremely recharged as I type this entry.

I almost tripped on my way to work today at the mini bridge.

That was embarassing.

Baby Birkens, you are a bitch today.

But, on the other hand I took a free bus trip to work today.

I boarded 139 to proceed to the interchange.

So, obviously I had to take out my purse to tap my EZ Link card.

But, the landyard which I hang all my keys and my agency pass got it's strap stuck on to the zipper of my bag.

I struggled and fondled with my bag until, finally, I got my purse out.

So, when I wanted to tap my EZ Link card, it was too late.

So, I asked the bus driver and he looked pretty young.

Synnta : "Eyy, how uhh ?"
Bus driver : "Uhhmm ... Cannot lahh. Nevermind lahh."
Synnta : "Really uhh."
Bus driver (As he smiled at me.) : "Yeah."

The bus made it's way to the interchange and turned my head to look at the bus driver.

Bus driver : "Ssshhh. Don't tell anyone !"
Synnta (Giggles.) : "Thank you."

What a day.

Woot.

Yay, Nina nak kahwin dengan Sheik !

Belanja aq makan, okae ?

Sebab aq memperkenalkan both of you.

Hebat tak, Dr. Synnta ?

Huhuhu.

As usual, I am sending emails out to potential recruits.

The truth is no one is responding to any on my emails.

Mendak uhh buat niie.

Dari last month seyy.

Reply lahh email aq.

Haiyoh.

Nizam, I will prove it to you that I am able to make my first million dollars before I reach 30 years old.

Nothing is impossible and impossible is nothing.

Just you see.

I have been planning this since I was 16 years old and naive.

I didn't know how I could achieve that target way back then.

Now, I am aware of the oppurtunities that are presented to me.

Just you wait and see.

Yet, I have to wait when I am officially legal.

Damn.

That is 2 years down the road.

-_-"

Chee bye.

Anyways, I hate being in an air conditioned place.

Boo.

-_-"

My eyes gets all watery and my nose gets all stuffy.

Shucks.

I have overly sensitive eyes which is totally messed up.

Anyways, I am glad I don't own an air conditioning system at home.

I wouldn't want to be too spoilt that I can't even stand in the sun.

I love the sun except when it gets too hot.

But, then again the best thing to do when you are feeling hot is to pour a bucket of water on yourself.

Or ...

Jump into a swimming pool.

Shiok lahh.

I don't know why that monkey is so kemaruk to spray his helmet gray.

Kalau spray job dia tak lawa complain at me.

After we came back from our short meet up, he actually didn't sleep just to spray his helmet.

Semangat lorr.

Pastu aq message tak reply.

Geram lahh.

Haiyoh.

Kalau kw sabar, next month aq baru nak beli kan kw helmet.

Step tak nak konon.

Macam faham lahh you niie.

Malas nak lecture dengan orang degil.

I feel so bored at work.

Kalau ikut kan hati, dahh lama aq balik.

Huhuhu.

Boss aq pun dahh dua hari tak datang office.

Senyap je.

Memang bagus pun.

Dia ada pun, sometimes buat menyemak je.

I thought of changing to a new blogskin but I haven't seen any nice one lately.

Ohhs, well.

I shall browse around again for more gorgeous blog skins.

Till then.

Have a good weekends, all.

I can't wait for my outing tomorrow with nerd boy.

Bye.



(Fly away.)

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Shoot down the stars.



"Anda perlu kan khidmat yang terbaik yang gurantee mendatangkan hasil ?"
"Anda memerlukan bantuan secara practical atau theory ?"
"Sila lahh hubungi Dr. Synnta !"
"Pakar dalam segala masalah anda."



Hahaha.

That was a joke between me and Wan from MSN.

By the way, I feel so much better today.

Yay.

I am not sick anymore but I still feel cold.

I have to admit, I was excited to meet that little monkey.

But now, I feel slightly disappointed.

I can't blame him though.

Fuck, National Service.

I hate that person !

Kw dahh tau pe, asal kw nak kena buat aq gitu macam.

Nak balas dendam pe.

Chee bye.

Aq benci kw, teramat.

The plan was to buka puasa together as we were both craving for chappatti and thosai masala.

Our next destination after buka puasa was to head to Mustafa Centre for a short shopping spree.

Then, we will head to the place somewhere only we know.

I guess I am buka-ing at home with the family.

It is all ruined because of you, jerk !

Anyways, the wireless connection at work was down again.

So, I had to cut my work short.

I am not even sure if I had meet my 100 emails target.

Bummer.

I guess that is all today.

I really have nothing in mind to blog about.

Someone misses Dr. Synnta Claus, badly.

Hehehe.


(Fly away.)

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Uuuggghhh ...



I feel so sick today.

Everyone in my office says I look stoned.

I suffer from a very bad case of flu too.

Not to mention I suddenly feel feverish.

Is it because I lack sleep last night ?

I don't think so.

I was shivering badly in my office even though Charmaine says the weather is hot.

So, I decided to send a text message to my boss saying that I request to leave early.

I really can't take it anymore.

Not to mention I feel super sleepy.

Usually, if I am sleepy I will update my blog.

It certainly will keep me awake.

But today, I am just not in the mood.

My boss has given me the green light to leave.

I don't even have to give him a medical certificate either.

He says he trusts me.

Thanks alot, boss.

I am going home to rest now.

Bye.


(Fly away.)

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Gossip girl.



Dear : "B, happy anniversary. What ever the spelling is. I will always love you like always."

Aww.

Sweetness.

Next month, we will hit that half a year mark.

Finally.

6 months of utter crapness is fun.

The CCP 2 held at Valley Point was not so bad.

I guess it isn't too early to plan for a graceful retirement.

Especially, after the credit crunch and sub-prime crisis that has been going in this year.

I will not be surprised if the United States of America slumps into Great Depression in my future especially after Lehman Brother's Bank filed for protection against bankruptcy.

It is always good to have savings.

The early bird catches the worm.

Would you want your days to be filled with live or your live be filled with days ?

So, start your retirement plan now.

For your information, I am not an automated transfer machine.

Bitch.

Don't you feel shameful texting me all the time and begging me for money.

Who the fuck do you think you are ?

Kerja tapi takde duit and ada hati nak bergaya.

Tak tau malu nya perempuan sundal.

Dahh kahwin and dahh ada anak pun nak menyundal.

Aq paling tak suka campur dengan orang macam kw.

Kw manusia yang tak bermoral.

Please, get a life.

I headed to Cik Ita's place at Tampines for buka puasa after my training.

Fish porridge and chicken wrap was yummy.

That little devil, Irwin Fazli gulped down 3 chicken wraps.

Damn, he is an eater.

We gossip pretty much a lot about our family politics.

I realise, our family is a good example of hypocracy, manipulations and malfunctionality.

No comments though.

Alot has happened through the years.

I have eyes to see and ears to hear.

Insyallah, the same fate does not happen in our generation.

That monyet is a cheeky little one, by the way.

Dear : "Dahh pandai off hand phone ?"

5 minutes later, my mobile phone rings.

Dear : "You kat mana ? Asal tadi off hand phone ?"
Synnta : "I dekat rumah lahh. Baru sampai. Tadi battery flat lahh. Asal ?"
Dear : "Relax lahh. Tak payah nak perah minyak pe. Asal macam binget niie dengan I."
Synnta : "Nothing lahh. Suddenly je feel irritated. Must be that smell which lingered in the bus tadi. Bau menyengat hidung pe. You dekat mana ?"
Dear : "I dekat car park block rumah you."
Synnta : "You tipu lahh. I tak percaya."
Dear : "Nak dengar bunyi horn I ?"
Synnta : "Nak."

That cheeky little monkey was actually at the parking lot.

Hehehe.

His horn was as loud as a car's horn that I finally believe he was at my void deck.

What a way to surprise me.

(:

We chatted for a while because I was beat from all of today's events.

It really made my day.

Wee.

By the way, your new spectacles make you look even more like a nerd boy.

Anyways, that is all for today.

Sweet dreams.

Tags replied :

Bie : Ahahaha. So, you noticed. (:
Nina : Asal cemburu seyy ? Cuba cerita dekat kakak niie sikit. Hehehe.

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(Fly away.)

Monday, September 15, 2008

Disturbia.



It feels so weird.

It's the fasting month yet I am getting all these disturbances again.

Is it a sign from God asking me to repent from all my sins during this holy month.

Last night, an eerie voice sang to me as I slipped away to Dream Land.

I tried to shut it away from my mind.

Again, my attempts failed.

I feel so lethargic and tired.

When will it all end ?

Is it sent as a form of spite from someone who loathes me ?

Please, let me be in peace.

I have had enough.


(Fly away.)

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Sweet Torment.



Dear : "Look at the sky outside. What do you see"
Synnta : "It's raining ?"
Dear : "Besides that ?"
Synnta : "The sky is red. I don't see any stars today."
Dear : "Some more ? Search properly."
Synnta : There are alot of clouds but I can't see the moon."
Dear : "Got your name but it was blown away by the wind."
Synnta : "Aww. Really ? Did you put my name there ?"
Dear : "Yeah. I flew an aeroplane and made your name using smoke from the enjin. It's a full moon tonight."
Synnta : "Aww. Hehehe. I can't see the moon. So sweet of you."
Dear : "Do you remember when was the last time we saw a full moon ?"
Synnta : "Yes. We were on the expressway, on our way to Geylang when we saw the full moon but the beautiful night had to end so quickly. :("
Dear : "Yeaps."

I didn't know why that Monkey was so mushy towards me.

Hehehe.

But, it was cute.

He kept asking me whether I loved him or not.

Silly boy.

Of course I do.

That's all for today.

Desperate Housewives on Star World is super addictive.


(Fly away.)

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Fatalities.



Bummed my fat ass at home.

That monkey was in camp on stand by yet again.

I'm telling you, National Service is a fucking bitch.

Anyways, I slept till like it's almost time to break fast.

Today, I did not fast again.

I regretted not being able to go to the Career Seminar held at Le Meridien Singapore.

How could I in the first place.

I could not remember what I ate last night which caused me to have such a bad case of diarrhoea.

Fuck.

Anyways, I'm off to pamper myself with alot of Desperate Housewives.

By the way, rubber glue back to you.

If you know what I mean.

Bye.


(Fly away.)

Friday, September 12, 2008

Truth or Dare ?



It was a great day because of the karaoke session.

Headed to Geylang Bazaar first to have our dinner.

Things happened unexpectedly but I had fun.

I regretted it at first but when she got better, I was relieved.

Promise me, we shall not do it ever again.

Let's keep it down on the low, babe.

Cousin, it was a sweet night but you scared the shit out of me.

Azly, kw sungguh cute ehhk ?

Boyfriend, you jangan jealous.

Hehehe.

(:

I shall not elaborate more as I am beat and ready for bed.

Sweet dreams.


(Fly away.)


Command & Conquer



I don't usually blog twice in a day but today, I decide to.

Hehehe.

Last night's session of Command & Conquer rocks my socks.

Eventhough I have to admit I sucked at it.

It's been a long time since I played multiplayer games which involves tacticalities and strategies.

Second Life doesn't count.

Not to mention that it is almost a totally sexually explicit game.

Lol.

Today's branch meeting session was totally about the Activity Builder.

I must say I am extremely impressed with the software that they distributed.

Sadly though, it has alot of technical glitches that needs to be sorted out.

Theoritically, it is good.

At least there is some form of system that is in placed to manage the clients information.

Bapak say I don't have to attend the group meeting.

Angela is on MC so I thought I had to fill in for her.

I hope she feels better when she comes back on Monday.

Get well soon, darling.

Feeling very bored right now.

I can't wait to meet the cousin later.

Wee.

(:

Outings are so much fun.

Yet, it doesn't feel the same.

If only that someone would understand.

I am not doing this because I want to.

I am fucking bored.

You can't expect me to rot and stay at home.

It's just a form of distraction.

If he had probably met me once, I guess I would be contented enough to stay at home.

Whatever.

For your information, menyundal is not an interesting word.

Bye.


(Fly away.)


I like you so much better when you are naked.


I am the world's biggest idiot.

I am so stuck on Maple Story yet I cannot believe the fact that I forgot my fucking password and username.

Fucking chee tan.

Of all the days, today is the day that I had to forget something when everyone decides to go to the LAN shop to play games.

Damn.

Yet, I feel so happy today.

Wee.

Lepak-ing is cool.

(:

I can't wait to go out with my beloved sedara later.

Bye, all.

I hate work, by the way.


(Fly away.)

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Monster.



Last night's outing was awesome.

All of us headed to Kampung Glam for a break fast session.

I totally cannot remember what is that eatery called.

The food wasn't that bad but the satay and calamari rings sucked.

The waiter who took our order simply named us as "Girls." instead of the usual table numbers.

Frankly, it was due to the fact that we were the only group of girls that were dining at that eatery.

We ended up camwhoring alot while waiting for the time to slowly pass.

Anyways, after eating we gossip-ed about alot of things.

More likely, it was about a particular someone which everyone hates and no one wants to talk to yet she's trying to be friendly with anyone in the office.

:D

I was smoking so much.

I think I am slowly and extremely addicted to cigarrettes now.

Not to mention it is like a death sentence to me.

An agonizing, painful and slow death.

Which is technically a very bad thing as I am trying to cut down on smoking.

Everyone at home knows I am smoking and I know they are not happy about it.

But, I have my reasons for doing so.

Sometimes, smoking eases the tensions when I am thinking.

At times, smoking allows me to inhale and exhale my stress away.

Most of the times, the effects last a while.

I am very bored at the moment because I finished all my tasks assigned.

I am done with the client management thingy my boss assigned me to do.

I have already settled last month's profit and loss account for my boss.

Tomorrow, there is a branch meeting-cum-training session for the Activity Builder software that everyone in Synergy Life Planners installed in their laptops.

Snacking or shall I say, sinning at the moment.

Orang puasa, aq saja je mengunyah.

I hope the monthly predicament ends soon as I had the feeling of having to go to the bathroom every one hour.

It get's to me.

A while ago I chatted with Cik Ita on the phone.

Happy 5th Birthday, Irwin Fazly.

I missed you so much.

Cik Ita asked me to pop by her place for buka puasa.

Insyallah, next week.

Okae ?

Cik Ita wants me to bring that Monkey over for puasa too.

Hehehe.

He is such a shy boy lahh.

I hopes he says yes.

Tomorrow is another outing with my beloved cousin.

Nina, you know I know je lahh ehhk.

Hehehe.

Biar lahh rahasia.

(:

It's going to be a week that I have not meet that Monkey.

Beginning to miss that fish head so much but he is so busy.

He does not have the time to layan me.

What can I do ?

I feel so sad.

Had a short argument a while ago.

):

He says I can menggatal or menyundal outside because he is not meeting me.

Please lorr.

Kalau aq nak menyundal, buat apa aq ada boyfriend.

Puas hati single kan ?

Lagi bebas tanpa commitment.

Aq boleh ber-dating dengan sesiapa yang aq nak tanpa menghiraukan sesiapa.

I don't know.

Haish.

My mind is in a terrible whirlwind right now.

For those you knows, keep it to yourself.

For those who do not know, you are not meant and never will know.

Haish.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I dont want to be the reason why.

Anyways, here are the pictures.

Enjoy, darlings.

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Sms-ing that Monkey while Mizah makes a funny face at the camera.
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Rina, Izah, In and me.
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I look tired without my make up.
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Ghost Rider. (:
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Peace.
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Tak sabar nak makan sampai gigit jari.
Hehehe.
Tapi telur dia tak menyelerakan seyy.
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Mizah and me.
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Showing off that gorgeous henna while I peace out featuring, Mizah !
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Us, again.
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Muka penat and tak lawa lorr.
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Lepak and smoke at Starbucks, Bugis Junction.
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I am officially a smoke machine.



(Fly away.)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated ?



I cannot believe the fact that I woke up at 8.30AM today.

Was I really that shagged ?

But, I was at home last night being lazy.

Despite dear's several attempts of wake up calls, I ended up snoozing back in bed.

It wasn't until Mama's last words did I actually wake up.

Mama : "Des, dah pukul 8.30AM tau."
Synnta : (Gives Mama this legong look.) "Huh ?!!"

Anyways, I took a super duper quick shower, grabbed what ever outfit that Mama has ironed for me, applied my make up and did my hair.

I rushed out of the home which seemed pretty useless because I left home at 9.03AM.

I walked leisurely to the bus stop while puffing a cigarette because I realise that the bus will take ages to arrive.

Did I mention I have to tediously walk up the overhead bridge ?

Exercising in the morning is a bummer especially when you have not eaten anything.

Synnta : "D, aq tidur balik seyy tadi. Pastu I tersadar at 8.30AM."
Love : "Who ask you too ... Degil. Abeh, sekarang pat mana ?"
Synnta : "Hehehe. Shiok lahh abeh nak buat macamana. On the way to work now. Mandi lincah pe."
Love : "Mandi cowboy. You busuk."
Synnta : "Tak lahh. I wangi lahh. Tak macam you."
Love : "Abeh, mandi lincah. Mesti ada yang missed."
Synnta : "Takde lahh. It's clean and shiny. Smooth, baby."
Love : "Macam faham smooth, baby. You dahh sampai kerja belum ?"
Synnta : "Hehehe. A'ah. Dahh. Tak tau apa nak buat. Lol. Masih legong.

Suddenly, I don't feel like working.

I am stuck in a difficult position all of a sudden.

How do I explain it to everyone in a calm manner that no one will actually get angry at me ?

I feel so lost.

I feel like telling everyone because, now, I feel closer to them.

But some how, I don't wish to lose the friendship.

What am I to do ?

I feel as though I am being crushed slowly and dramatically by the near future that is approaching.

1 : consisting of parts intricately combined.
2 : difficult to analyze, understand, or explain.

What is so complicated about the definition of complicated.

Complicated itself is a jargon.

Yesterday's topic with Mr K&N itself was about being complicated.

What is meant when someone says that he or she is complicated.

Is it because he or she,

(a.)Has alot of issues going on in his or her life.

Or,

(b.) Is naturally a fickle minded individual.

But, what about the online social networking website, Friendster ?

Why does someone declare his status as "It's complicated."

What is so complicated about his or her marital status ?

Why doesn't he or she declare that he or she is "Single," "Married," "In a relationship," or "Divorced ?"

What does that individual has to hide ?

Is it because he or she is actually attached but is angry at their other half and the word "It's complicated." itself is a form of spite to the other individual.

Or, it could be that that individual is attached but is simply fooling around ?

Maybe, the individual is single, yet again, the word "It's complicated." acts as a form of disguise to analyse other human beings in the surroundings.

Human beings itself are delicate intricate works of nature.

How could millions of interdependent and subordinate elements of atoms, moloecules, cells, and minute organisms whose relations and properties are largely determined by their function in the whole, be magnificently combined to make what we are ?

Let us all ponder.

I can't wait for today's buka puasa outing with the office babes.

(:

Wondering where they will break their fast later.

I am still not fasting !

Maybe, they will head to Kampung Glam or Geylang Serai.

Hehehe.

I hope my bapak will not be a bitch today and let me leave at 5PM with the girls.

I hate the feeling of being stuck in the middle.

Macam pukimak seyy.

Haiyah.

Damn, baby.

Tags replied :
Fion : When, baby ?
Izah : Yeah. Sungguh lucah. Tak perasan yang the sentence rhyme too. Hehehe. Tapi memang kenyataan yang tak boleh di nafikan. :)


(Fly away.)

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

An unwanted reminder.



As usual, the wireless connection in my office is being a bitch.

As a result, I am not allowed to connect to Microsoft Outlook.

I am not able to send out respective emails to potential recruits.

I prepared files for my boss as a purpose of servicing with his clients and that took like less than an hour.

Now, I am very bored.

Chatted on MSN with that Monkey.

Poor boy.

He was on stand by in camp last night while I was being comfortable at home.

Thank heavens women are not required to serve the nation.

Last night, I slept soundly and peacefully.

I wish I could do it right now in the office.

It was raining so the sleep was twice the shiokness.

I turned on the fan at its usual speed.

I rolled on bed with a warm blanket, my favourite pillows and of course my dear Bobby.

I think that Monkey called me a few minutes slightly after minute.

I guess I was knocked out the moment I landed my head on the pillow.

It was so cold that I had to hug my dearest Bobby ever so tightly.

I am still feeling sleepy even though I have to admit I slept quite early last night.

Mama stuffed us bee hoon goreng and Macdonald's for buka puasa yesterday.

Not that I am fasting or anything.

It's all thanks to the fat geek at home.

So, I am uber stuffed.

I am reminded terribly of someone.

Damn.

He gave me that "Ohhs, dear. You are in trouble look."

Bloody fuck.

I have a feeling something is not right.

What could it be ?

Fuck.


(Fly away.)

Monday, September 8, 2008

Temptations.



I am so pissed off.

Apasal kw nak kena kacau aq semalam ?!!

Last night, I knew I wasn't hallucinating.

Dear was already asleep.

I was miserable.

My last text message to him was a simple good night and the usual bed time kiss I never fail to give.

The fan was turned on at a low speed as usual.

A couple of times, I would feel vibrations against the pillow.

Yet, every time, when I check both my mobile phones, the screen will come to a blank.

Is my mind playing tricks on me ?

At certain times, I would feel a knock coming from under my bed.

What could it be ?

It was going on the whole night.

I slept for an hour and it soon was already morning.

Dear gave me his usual early morning wake up calls and I did not want to wake up.

I am scared.

Tonight, I will be going to the same bed for my slumber.

Will I be experience the same scary thing again ?

I know that it is impossible for rats to be in my house.

I live on the 7th floor of a HDB flat.

Cockroaches or lizards are out.

Mama sweeps the floor every day and Papa never fail to vacuum the house every week.

What could it be then ?

It is Ramadhan this month.

Could it be a possibility ?

I am very cranky today.

-_-"

Stop wasting paper, you mother fucking son of a bitch.


(Fly away.)

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Aarrgghh, fuck.



Woot.

Bazaar with my darling adeq sedara, Nina, was awesome.

We met at Paya Lebar MRT.

It was originally planned at 6.30PM but we actually met around 7PM.

Hehehe.

Lambat lorr the both of us.

:D

She was with this dude, Syafiq.

I think they are dating or something.

He looks like a nice guy so thumbs up aiyte, babe.

(:

We were like walking around trying to waste time while waiting for break fast.

But, like what the hell.

The 3 of us tak puasa.

(:

When we heard the Azdhan, out of no where, the 3 of us made a stick of cigarette magically appear.

Step mana nya puasa lorr.

Hey, I have a reason for not fasting lorr.

Hehehe.

We were walking around in circles aimlessly.

Walking around the same spot over and over again.

Cari mangsa kan, Nina ?

Tak dapat satu pun.

Ahahaha.

Kidding.

Anyways, after 10 minutes of walking, we bought snacks and lepak-ed under the void deck while waiting for Syafiq's friend to fetch him home.

It seems that his bike broke down and is at the motor shop for servicing.

We smoked hell alot.

Anyways, not to mention it was partly wet due to yesterdays rain.

Baby Birkens got stuck in a puddle of mud !

I am so pissed off at myself.

Baby Birkens, you are taking a shower once you get home.

)':


We walked hell alot again I do not know for what bloody hell reason.

I saw Azly and Fizah's ex-boyfriend somewhere at the bazaar.

Mr. K&N, I feel like biting you.

You bloody hell saw me at the bazaar and you never tegur.

You said I look different.

What is so different about me ?

Dahh sampai Simpang Bedok baru nak call.

What only lahh you.

Hehehe.

Gosh.

I saw Kiddo's friends !

Nina ...

You know, I know and public don't know, okae ?

Biar lahh rahasia tau.

Kiddo's friend stood at the junction while I stood a couple of metres away.

We looked at each other with the "I know you but yet again I do not know you look".

Alamak.

(:

Why ehhk ?

Haiyah.

Sedih kejap seyy.

Anyways, we did henna on our hands.

Wee.

We were walking around like a mannequin because we were so scared that people might ruin our beautiful henna designs if they accidentally bumped us.

We were walking and some people would comment that our henna designs were beautiful.

Henna design dia je lawa ?

Orang dia tak lawa ke ?

Hahaha.

We were having so much difficulty smoking !

Nina did it on her left hand while I did mine on my right.

I sucked at smoking with my left hand and we had to ask assistance from each other to light the cigarretes.

Funny.

I accompanied Nina back home by train but my trip was cut short at Kallang because I decided to take 985 home.

It was actually faster than taking the train all the way to City Hall to change.

On the other hand, hers was a direct train to Jurong East.

Eyy, minah ...

Kw naik train tak payah nak stare aq atas bawah lahh, sial.

Nak step langgar aq pulak tuu bila aq keluar train

Dahh tak hot.

Muka kw macam pepek, sial.

Tetek pun tak ada.

Time lambat ehhk, budak.

Get a life, slut.

Baby Birkens need a shower now and I want to wash the henna off my hands.

Wee.

Messaging that Monkey, again.

I tak menggatal ehhk, today.

(:

He is bound to fall asleep before me.

I can just feel it.

Sleep tight, love.


(Fly away.)

Saturday, September 6, 2008

I am a cookie whore.



Bazaar was awesome but it was wet.

My baby Birkens was soaked in the rain.

):

I had to be careful with every impendind step I take.

I do not want to dirty that precious darling of mine.

The intended one fetched me from home before we proceeded to Geylang bazaar.

The journey was a half wet one.

Super shivering lahh.

Si monyet tuu pakai sweater sorang lorr.

Hehehe.

Banyak baju lawa kan dekat sana.

Aku tak tau mana satu nak buy seyy.

He has a grey kain samping at home.

So, we opted for black or white this year.

I saw this really gorgeous white outfit at Tanjong Katong Complex.

Dear says it looks like baju pengantin.

Maybe it does but what the heck.

Lawa lahh seyy.

The price also very lawa.

It costs around $150 to $250 which was a normal that I would spend on my Hari Raya outfits yearly.

His knees trembled when he heard the price that the sales assistant quoted.

He almost fainted.

Hahaha.

But after all, we decided that we would look around first.

Yet, after much thought, I decided against white because it will dirty easily.

Not to mention we will be riding on baby Fireblade.

So, I also opted for a pants suit outfit.

Dear gave a very good suggestion.

Either "black with a shiny silvery look" or "black with a little bit of white patterns".

I guess I will look around first before I make my decision and dear will follow up from there.

I cannot wait.

(:

Kerupuk lekur was yum-mie.

As usual, he had the sudden cravings of chendol and/or air kathira like last night.

Kalah kan orang mengandung lorr.

After bazaar, we had no plans on where to head.

I wanted to chill at Mount Faber or the Henderson Wharves but it was too wet.

I saw his bikey !

That mat rempit exhaust with the sticker, his "P" plate and that unique positioning of his mirrors.

Anyways, we headed to Mustafa Centre where I bought perfumes.

3 bottles to be exact.

What can I say.

I have this weird fetish for perfumes.

Hahaha.

Masala thosai and chappati with keema was heaven.

He is so going to head over to that coffee shop near Mustafa Centre every time he has a weird craving for chappatti.

Next, we headed to pang keng and I swear to God we did not do anything illegal.

(:

I was having my menses too.

That means ...

Tak payah puasa !

Hehehe.

So, we ended up watching TV, smoking and played wrestling with each other.

It was wet during the journey home.

Lately, it has been raining during the nights.

Okae, I am very tired now.

(:

Messaging that Monkey before I head off to Dream Land.

Sweet dreams, love.


(Fly away.)

Friday, September 5, 2008

I am glad to hear that SoBiz was a success.

(:

The view at Bullion Park was exqusite.

Hehehe.

Angela, Claire, Dominique and me ended up taking pictures as we waited to usher all financial planners attending the meeting.

I can't wait to upload the pictures.

Wee.

I actually paid attention to the whole event because secretly, I wanted to know what is going on in the insurance business.

Who knows, I could be a successful financial planner.

Then, I could reach my target of becoming a millionaire before I hit the age of 30.

I am so determined to achieve my goal.

But, then again, I am still too young at this point of time.

I am not even 19 yet.

Anyways, the buffet was awesome.

And, I chose the menu.

Am I great or am I great.

Hehehe.

I didn't eat much and I am not lying here but I was uber full.

The unintended one fetched me from Bullion Park and we ended up riding in circles.

We headed to the red light district to get cigarettes but to our dismay no one was selling.

We assumed a police raid was taking place.

It was kinda scary.

Suddenly, that monkey had a weird craving for chendol.

So, we were riding around in circles yet again.

Ended up at Kopitiam somewhere around Serangoon Road.

I had headaches so I didn't really enjoy the chendol.

He was slurping it up all by himself except for the occasional times that he fed me chunks of ice.

We could not decide where to head to next so we ended up bawah my block.

Chatted and smoked before we proceeded home.

I am so tired so I shall head off to La La Land.

Good night.


Damn you, Kiddo.



(Fly away.)

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Welcome back, Mr K&N.



(:

I have sort of missed you while you were away.

It is good to have you back.


This is a really, really long post ...



I suddenly dread work.

This year's fasting month makes me feel super lethargic.

Is it because of the lackness of sleep ?

I woke up at 4.30AM for the pre-dawn breakfast or sahur as we call it.

I slept super late last night because I ended up tossing and turning after receiving that Monkey's last text message.

He was probably snoring while I was being pissed off.

Sometimes, I will sleep at 1AM because I will be sending messages or talking on the phone with the unintended one.

Last night, we were fighting about pet names that we could call each other.

At first, he insisted that I called him "abang" which in Malay means brother.

Then, I told him that "abang" is super old school because it belongs to our parents era.

Not to mention that we are not even born yet.

Yet, he claims that he is older than me.

I couldn't agree more but get this, Monkey.

We are only a year apart.

It doesn't count.

Logically, I am allowed to call you small boy.

Small boy who is excited about water heaters to be exact.

It sounded really funny when he suggested "Puppy" and "Kitty".

Suddenly, we became animal-ish.

It got worst when he said we could call each other "Mummy" and "Daddy"

Sial lahh.

Kental lorr.

Dahh macam Anak Metropolitan.

So, his conclusion was normal.

He couldn't give me and answer for normal though.

Today, my boss is still away from his holiday.

I really didn't feel like working because I was physically very weak.

Not to mention that I am hungry.

I am trying super hard to control my urge to eat.

Damn.

I had to prepare and send emails for recruitment again.

But I did it before lunch was even over.

As usual, I was left with nothing to do.

As, Angela was on half day leave, I had to help her abit.

Which I didn't mind at all.

At least there is freaking something to do.

I do not want to give an impression to everyone that I am being lazy.

Well, in fact I am not.

I just tend to do my things really quickly once I get the hang of it.

I finished the profit and loss accounts that my boss dumped to me during my first month that I was here.

So, what am I to do ?

With the attachment students around, I am extremely free because Angela has to give them work to do too.

Darn.

When is Aidilfitri coming ?

Honestly, the good thing about Ramadhan is the fact that I can lose weight.

YAY.

Slimmer me.

But, what is the point when I am going to gain it all back during the house visits on the first day of Aidilfitri.

I thought of getting a bag from either Guess? or Longchamp for Aidilfitri.

If I had saved all my money since day one that I had started working, I would have enough money to get myself at least a hand bag from Louise Vuitton or Gucci at least.

But instead, I splurged it on binge eating and drinking.

What an idiot I am.

Lol.

Almost 5 months of your monkeyness and I enjoyed every bit of you.

Deep down, I wished we could stay like how we were last night.

Could we ?

I really missed those times when you would cuddle me and we would be lost in a world of our own.

Then, again.

At times, we'd fight.

We'd fight so much that I'd cry in my sleep.

I really missed those endless rides we'd have with our dearest Baby Sparky and I'll hug you through out the whole journey.

I really enjoyed every moment that we spent together doing nothing because I have you right beside me.

Would you kiss me and sent shockwaves down my spine like before ?

Would you make me have butterflies in my stomache when I'm getting ready to meet you ?

Could we just be in a place somewhere only we know and not worry about the troubles of the world ?

Would you love me like how I would love you ?

On a lighter note, SoBiz 1.2 @ Bullion Park is tomorrow.

(:

Can't wait for the buffet because I chose the menu.

What can I say, food is the passion of my life.

I have other passions too.

But food is the ultimate.

Last night, I was suppose to head down to Bedok for a lepak session.

But, when I saw the Queen whipping up my favourite Fried Macaroni and Roti Telur with hotdog, otah and sardine stuffings I decided to paitau them on the last minute.

I am mean.

I know.

But, I enjoy and love food.

Till then.

Love, darling.


(Fly away.)

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Emotionally unstable.



How many fucking times do you need me to fucking explain it to you until you understand ?

I am sick and tired of it.

Maybe, the day when I'm gone is the day you will finally open your eyes and realise.


(Fly away.)

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

My brain went pop but will you even care ?



Ramadhan yang berlalu seperti hari biasa,

Di dalam hati tersimpan perasaan yang tiada bermakna;

Menusuk kalbu kesedihan dan segala kegelapan,

Malam yang datang dan berlalu menemani diriku yang keseorangan.

Apakah artinya untuk mencinta dan dicintai ?

Apakah aku manusia yang akan sentiasa menghadapi hidup dalam sepi ?

Tiada berartinya lagi buat diriku,

Andai ku bisa tetap tabah menghadapi dirimu.


(Fly away.)

Monday, September 1, 2008

Selamat berpuasa, all.



Puasa tau.

Jangan tak puasa.

Not to mention that the fasting month is a great month to lose all those excessive weight.

Shake all that jiggly goodness.

:D

But, no smoking.

Bummer.

-_-"

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Fion : Bazaar starts today. Anyways, the friend I lost was someone special to me. Someone who understood me. Someone who cared for me. Someone who cherished me but for a moment. Someone I never regretted meeting.


(Fly away.)