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Desinta Arisade Halid
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generationgirl2030@hotmail.com

Legally 21, soon !
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21 December 1989, Thursday.
Sagittarian/Capricornian.
Events Management Enthusiast.
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If you are hating, stop staring.™

Further Description of MYSELF :
She expresses herself through fashion, food, her lyrical writings, music and photography.
She organized her first gig, The Cynosure Theatre at the Singpore Art's House when she was barely 16 years old.
She enjoys meeting up with her dearest girlfriends and enjoy late night sessions of crapping, gossiping and smoking.
A self pro-claimed Facebook addict.
An avid blogger on most days when she doesn't suffer from bitch fits.
A person with flair and personality who doesn't resort to back hand tactics.
It makes her look all timid.
Like she emphasizes, if you are hating then stop staring.
Then, again.
Everyone is a critique.
And, I am extremely vulgar.
Did she mention that she has an obsession and addiction to a one-weird-eight-inch fetish ?

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

1 day till the 6th monthversary.
Day 4 that we are almost messaging yet not talking.

I woke up late today for work.

I really wish I didn't have to wake up.

I feel so worn out.

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I wished I'd just die and not live and go through this.

Last night, I couldn't hold back my tears once more.

I cried, again.

This time round, it hurts more than the first time.

I know I promised myself I wouldn't cry.

I am not that strong anymore.

My heart's shattered into a million pieces.

I'm picking up the pieces I have found scattered on the floor.

I sat in a corner and mend them tediously.

A strong wind blew and the pieces scattered all over the floor again.

I'm left alone in this dark room.

No one could here my pleas and cries.

I search for an opening only to find the room shrinking.

Is this what's left of me ?

The questions linger through my head.

I thought too much that my brain almost exploded.

Did you feel this way too ?

Why are you the one I missed so much ?

I really tried, honey.

Then, I felt so disappointed.

Why'd you have to give me all those excuses ?

You told me you still felt for me.

Why do you make me feel this way then ?

It hurts so much.

I know I was in the wrong.

If only you would forgive me.

Then, you told me you'd be going away.

Isn't it a year from now ?

Are you telling me you don't want to spend the moments together till that day comes ?

Neither am I comparing you with anyone.

I have never compared you with anyone.

But, then again, we could and find a way through all this.

Theoratically, technology is so advance this days.

Are you telling me we couldn't find a solution ?

I never expected too much.

I felt scarred when you sort of sided her.

Why is it, I became the world's meanest person person because of a small matter like this.

Why are you keen to give her so many chances despite of the fact of whom she is ?

I learn and I change.

I really tried very hard.

When will you see all this ?

I'm willing to sacrifice a little bit.

Would you ?

I received a sudden arrangement from you to meet me around your neighbourhood.

Would I break down right before your eyes ?

Would you say things that will bruise me ?

Would you hug me like before ?

Would I be able to feel those soft warm lips ?

Would you love me like before ?

I seriously don't know.

What if the worst is yet to come ?

I really can't imagine how I will react.

To all those who stood by me, thanks alot for being there in my time of need.

Especially to all those loving colleagues, I love all of you.

Thanks for making me better and giving me the best colleagues God can ever give.

Fion and Shida, I love you ladies too much.

Sorry if I was being a bitch.

At times, I'd bottle up all my feelings and everyone will thing I am fine.

Yet, most days, I'll hide in my room and cry silently.

Today, I feel as though my head's about to pop and I'd go hysterical.

I told Fion that all my confidence and motivation disappeared.

Am I not capable anymore ?

I am really afraid if I'd go back down that man hole again.

I really don't wish to see my dark past ever again.

Today, I feel like giving up.

(Fly away.)

1 day till the 6th monthversary.Day 4 that we are almost messaging yet not talking.

1 day till the 6th monthversary.
Day 4 that we are almost messaging yet not talking.