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Monday, September 29, 2008 Things will never be the same.
I am not in the mood for Aidilfitri all of a sudden. I am still brooding over what happened yesterday. I t wasn't my fault at all. Even though we are in slightly good terms, I feel alot of changes are coming ahead in our relationship. I am just afraid. He told me he has been hurt before and he is doesn't want history to repeat itself. I do not understand why he actually assumed that I am that kind of person. Is there a label on my forehead which says that ? Honestly, I am not. Eventhough I am barely 19 this year, I am not someone who doesn't think before I act or speak. I understand by being irrational, there will be dire consequences to all my actions. I am not like everyone else you know. Don't you realise that ? I am deeply scarred. But, I guess wounds will take time to heal. I've been hurt before but they made me stronger. Would I be going through another bottomless fall once again ? Whatever that I went through last night reminded me so much of the ex-boyfriend, Haidir. Would I be going through that rough ride again ? Will I hide in my room for 6 months crying endlessly again when I knew he wasn't coming back to me ? I really hated that feeling. I just want someone to love me whole heartedly and I promise that person I will love him the same way. I reminisced about the past memories and I realise love do hurt. But humans, fall in love time and time again. The main component in a relationship is trust. I am getting a hunch that he doesn't trust me anymore. Last night, he didn't even wanted to give me a chance. He told me I didn't deserve it ? How can I not deserve a chance when I wasn't in the wrong at all. Why are you doubting me ? I realise that I needed him more than he needed me after being together for awhile. I don't know what lies ahead. I expect alot of changes between us. I just hope that those changes are positive ones. I don't know how to live with this anymore. Will he treat me differently in the days, months or years to come ? I am not sure. But what I know is, I have never regretted being with him. I will never stop loving him and my feelings will never change. I am so afraid that he will really leave me. Must it be this soon ? Will I go back to my old ways again when he's not there for me ? I suddenly feel I am losing my sense of motivation. So much has happened this month. I am not sure if I can really take it anymore. Friends have told me that I am not and I can't give up. I have to be a fighter. I have a feeling that someone out there is not happy about our relationship. Why ? Can't you just let me be happy for once ? I guess all of this is a challenge from up above. I realise there will be alot of obstacles ahead of us. I will take it all with a smile on my face. Synnta loves Latiif. :( Tags replied : i m a g : She's my colleague. Stop staring at my friends. Lol. She's getting married next year. (: | |
