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She's laid in a pool of blood,
What's a darker dungeon as one's own shattered heart ?
She never got to see her death;
She said those 3 words in one last gasping breath.

Clutched on his hand a sharp and rusty knife,
One final kiss and he ended her life;
But he's showed no remorse nor regret,
Their wonderful moments will he forget.

Yesterday night was a different story,
A moment of triumph, seared in their memories;
He loved her alot, she loved him too,
He's left all alone, confused and there's nothing he can do.



This is a very bad start of the New Year. My life is screwed up. -___- Anyway, enough of that crappy mumbo jumbo. I just feel so shagged. Remember on Monday I had to accompany Pak Agus on his business meetings. It was a new experience for me. We went to the industrial estates and they sure looked alien to me. But it was indeed a wonderful experience. But we had to go from one end of Singapore to the other end. The cab fares are so expensive. (:

This was a sweet beginning with a very bitter ending.

I can't help it. Im still reading the email he sent me. In fact he sent it to me twice. My first reaction was "What the fuck ?" I couldn't cry nor was I angry. I was just too lost for words. I immediately told Fion about it. She asked me how I was taking the bad news. She tried to console me. When I told her that I couldn't shed a tear or two for him, she got worried. She knows me well. She knew I'm naturally very emotional.

Seriously, I don't have the energy to cry anymore.

When you go will you even turn to say "I dont love you like I do yesterday" ?

But I kept thinking about all those sms-es he sent me, the kisses and hugs he gave me. Are those not sincere ? How about those times when he said he loved and missed me ? Did he say it because I wanted to hear it. He said he felt that he was cheating on me. Maybe I shouldn't have agreed when he asked me to be his girlfriend or maybe I shouldn't have let myself fall deeper for him.

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I know I'll forgive him, but forgetting him ... It's impossible. I hate to admit it but it was one of the best relationship. Well, whatever it is. The next time I have to make a serious decision which involves me to be committed or strings attached to someone, I know I'm not going to rush into it and I'll definitely think twice about it.

For this point of time though, I've decided to take a break from love.

P.s I really have no mood to blog.