SynntaClaus - She's in Town. If you are hating, stop staring.™

Different.

2011-09-27T18:41:00.001+08:00

Everytime you get it new, you change. I forbid you to. I forbid you.

Sigh.

2011-09-17T00:48:00.001+08:00

You don't know, do you? :( Just so you know ... My heart may not be perfect. But, it lights up for you. Just you. Happy anniversary. Good night.

Long last!

2011-09-11T06:12:00.001+08:00

Finally! Blogger decides to create an application. Yipee. Guess, I am back then. Latest update from me with a picture as well. And, good mornights. Bed, now. :)

Crickets.

2011-03-27T02:57:00.002+08:00

Feel Free To View Our Website, www.ayincloset.weebly.com

2011-03-21T22:38:00.001+08:00

Okae, babe!

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

Do you tend to be shy or an attention seeker?

2011-03-21T22:37:00.001+08:00

It depends on the situation really. I am loud but not attention seeking. (:

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

formspring.me

2011-03-11T17:11:00.003+08:00

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥ http://www.formspring.me/SynntaClaus

If you could be granted one wish, what would it be?

2011-03-11T17:11:00.001+08:00

I wish I could be smarter with the decisions in my life. (:

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

what iz e worse thing dat u did behind ur luved ones???

2011-03-03T10:19:00.001+08:00

Hmm ... Something that I wouldn't want the whole world to know. (:

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

Do u have tattoo?

2011-03-03T10:18:00.003+08:00

Err ... Nope. :D I am more into piercings though.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

hello you got a new years resolution?

2011-03-03T10:18:00.001+08:00

Hi. Who are you, by the way? Yes, I do. For 2011, it's the year of the exams. Then I am off to make more money! :D

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

what is your all-time favourite breakfast cereal?

2011-03-03T10:17:00.001+08:00

HONEYSTARS!!!

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

2.00AM.

2010-12-08T15:33:00.002+08:00

I give you everything that I am,
I'm handing over everything that I've got;
Cause I wanna have a really true love,
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up.

Stay up till four in the morning & the tears are pouring,
& I want to make it worth the fight;
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right.

Would you rather be a zombie or a mummy?

2010-12-07T14:19:00.001+08:00

Zombie. If I were a mummy, how will I attack my nemesis? I will be covered in toilet paper. -_-"

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

Yessa!

2010-12-07T14:05:00.000+08:00

I see something nice on your backgrounddddddd!

2010-12-07T12:10:00.001+08:00

Yes, baby. I need some of this like right now! Grr.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

Is their “We’ll Be Back Shortly” and “Just A Minute” based on some alternate universe?

2010-12-06T20:06:00.000+08:00

Let's go to Paris or New York or Switzerland or Venice!

2010-12-06T15:58:00.001+08:00

I opt for New York City! Then, Paris, then the Swiss and then Venice. How about that? Xoxo.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

What music are you listening to today?

2010-12-06T10:52:00.003+08:00

Jiwang mode on. So, listening to Terry's Janji Manismu.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

Where's your favorite place to buy clothes?

2010-12-06T10:52:00.001+08:00

Anywhere and everywhere.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

Would you rather date a lot of different people, or be in a committed relationship?

2010-12-06T10:51:00.001+08:00

It depends on how old I was. Right now, I am contented and blessed to be in a long term relationship.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

wats dat on your nipple?oreo???

2010-12-06T10:45:00.003+08:00

No. It's your Mama's mole. She dropped it while licking my nipples. Mafacking haters.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

fck u kaes?

2010-12-06T10:45:00.001+08:00

Okae. Front or back? TYVM.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

Legally, 21.

2010-12-06T10:30:00.003+08:00

15 days till my birthday!

LC, please come quick so that I can strut my stuff!

CartoonFrenzy.

2010-12-05T21:13:00.000+08:00

Exams.

2010-12-04T16:05:00.001+08:00

It's time to start mugging for exams soon.

I am really afraid that I'll not do well.

Sigh.

All the best.

):

So, where you at?

2010-12-03T18:02:00.001+08:00

Got to find a way to get away.

2010-12-02T14:00:00.000+08:00

Boo-Yah!

2010-12-01T17:28:00.002+08:00

First post since ages.

I miss blogging.

So, decided to drop by here.

Spider webs a plenty.

Will talk again soon.

Would you rather get up early or sleep late?

2010-12-01T17:25:00.003+08:00

SLEEP LATE!

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

What's one food you'll never eat again?

2010-12-01T17:25:00.001+08:00

2 things. Durian and mangoes. They are evil stuff.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

What household chore do you hate to do the most?

2010-12-01T17:23:00.003+08:00

Err ... Yeah.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

Were you a Michael Jackson fan?

2010-12-01T17:23:00.001+08:00

Not really. I loved some of his beats though.

Don't hesitate. Just ask ! ♥

Something doesn't seem right.

2010-06-16T17:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Monthversary.

Last Day.

2010-06-15T18:51:00.000+08:00

Today, is the official last day at Tele-Centre Services.

Tomorrow will be a brand new day at my new work place.

I hope everything works out well.

Update soon !

(:

Speechless.

2010-06-14T18:49:00.000+08:00

Talk to me.

2010-06-13T14:40:00.000+08:00

You can't love if you can't trust.

2010-06-12T19:35:00.002+08:00

Comme Ci Comme Ca.

2010-06-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

You are the reason why I smile.
You are also the reason I haven't been smiling much lately.

Sex Rock Lifestyle.

2010-06-10T06:13:00.000+08:00

Drift Wood.

2010-06-09T17:59:00.000+08:00

WhatsItToYaa ?

2010-06-08T17:08:00.001+08:00

Seriously.
Fucking seriously.
Get an effin life lahh, slut.
Kw, mana nya hotstuff ?!!
Puii.
I have been a bitch before but you are just a low class shameless whore.
Tuu muka, pergi scrub dengan Dettol and Fab.
Tuu barang baik yang sebenar nya buruk pergi polish dulu.
Baru kw berbual dengan aq.
Siial lahh.
Kalau, ikut perangai aq dulu, dahh lama siiol aq rembat kw nya muka kasi lagi pecah.
Perangai minah rep baru nak naik nya main belakang orang.
Kepala buto uhh.
Dahh pengecut buat hal pengecut uhh siiaks.
Apa kw dapat from judging others.
Does what ever we do or wear trouble you in any fucking way ?
Kalau kw rasa kw nak ubah perangai cara pakaian orang ke perangai orang ke, kw nya diri kw ubah dulu.
Without realizing when you point a finger to others, 4 fingers a bloody hell pointing back at you.
Nak step jadi hotstuff konon, jadi bitch pun tak pass.
Nak kena orang ajar kw dulu.
Baru kw tau.
Sedang kan, kw umur berapa tapi, kw tak tau Orchard Towers tempat bapok.
Kw kental pe siia ?!!
Dunia belum kenal, jangan banyak berbual.
Kw pergi makan garam banyak-banyak dulu baru kw nasihat orang.
Tuu G-String kw pakai, sumbat dalam mulut kw nak.

Relax ...
Relax ...
Jangan jadi fanatic ehhk.
Hahaha.
Pasal, orang baik and cute kena jadi good girl.

I am officially a Geek-A-Zoid.

Permanent Geek.

2010-06-07T14:39:00.001+08:00

Okae lahh.

Pada saat aq me-naip blog post ini, sudah menjadi official bahawa aq seorang geek-a-zoid.

Hahaha.

Apa ke tidak.

Wa buta, bro !

Kena pakai spectacles.

Lol.

Permanent pulak tuu.

On the left sight, it's 250DEGREES and on my right side it's 200DEGREES.

Buta kan ?

Rabak ...

On Saturday, went to Peninsula Plaza with him to get ours done.

He had to fix his and I have to get a new one.

Sumpah weird siiaks pakai spectacles permanently.

Tapi, apa nak buat.

Dahh tak nampak.

Sedih siiots.

):

Haish.

Tuu pasal lambat je.

Asyik tertinggal bus.

Pasal jauh aq tak nampak.

Hahaha.

Okae lahh.

Sampai di siniie.

P.s Hari niie aq tak work.

Jadi aq nak me-lepak di atas katil.

Chiiaoz.

What am I ?

2010-06-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

I promise.

2010-06-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

No matter what happens, I'll stick by you forever.
Through ups and downs.
Cause you are the strength and the soul in me.
I love you like you love me.
And, you are forever the bitch I adore.
Stay strong.

Looking for love when there's a maybe.

2010-06-04T10:52:00.004+08:00

Live with it.

Rebellious.

2010-06-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

It may not mean nothing to y'all,
But understand, nothing was done for me;
So I don't plan on stopping at all,
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine.

I shutting shit down in the mall,
And telling every guy he's the one for me;
And I ain't even planning to call,
I want this shit forever mine, ever mine, ever mine.

PaperDollHeaven.

2010-06-02T14:08:00.005+08:00

Aq dahh malas siiaks dengan hidup. Aq sedih. Susah ke orang nak faham aq ? Aq tak mintak orang duit. Aq tak mintak orang sympathy dengan aq. Aq nak orang encourage dengan motivate aq untuk terus hidup. Tuu pun orang tak boleh bagi aq. Aq tau uhh siial, aq miskin. Aq tau, kw memang look down on aq. Aq marah. Kita dahh tak berbual macam dulu. Sakit. Macam mana tak jatuh sakit. Fikiran banyak sangat. Macam mana nak selesai kan masalah niie ? Sebab masalah niie tak akan ada penyelesaian nya. Aq boleh buat sesuatu tapi masalah niie tetap akan bermain dia fikiran aq. Niie lahh duit. Tanpa duit, kw mati. Sebab, kw tak boleh beli makan. Tak ada tenaga. Tak boleh pergi kerja lepas tuu, tak ada duit. Dan, aq memang tak ada duit. Semua orang tak akan faham. Macam mana aq nak selesai kan masalah niie ehhk ? Senang bila dia melafazkan supaya aq mencari kerja yang baru. Aq memang boleh. Tapi, dahh cari berjuta perkerjaan di luar sana tapi, tak akan pernah cukup.

I FEEL LIKE FUCKING RUNNING AWAY FROM EVERYTHING.

Be with someone because you love him or her and not because you're used to. If you can't give your all then it's better not giving any, because both parties will never be happy.

I still do but sometimes I feel like punching you right in the face.

17.

2010-06-01T17:50:00.000+08:00

Seventeen by Janis Ian.

I learned the truth at seventeen,
That love was meant for beauty queens;
And high school girls with clear skinned smiles,
Who married young and then retired.

The valentines I never knew,
The Friday night charades of youth;
Were spent on one more beautiful,
At seventeen I learned the truth ...

And those of us with ravaged faces,
Lacking in the social graces;
Desperately remained at home,
Inventing lovers on the phone.

Who called to say "Come dance with me,"
And murmured vague obscenities;
It isn't all it seems at seventeen ...

A brown eyed girl in hand me downs,
Whose name I never could pronounce;
Said : "Pity please the ones who serve,
They only get what they deserve."

The rich relationed hometown queen,
Marries into what she needs;
With a guarantee of company,
And haven for the elderly ...

So remember those who win the game,
Lose the love they sought to gain;
In debitures of quality and dubious integrity,
Their small-town eyes will gape at you.

In dull surprise when payment due,
Exceeds accounts received at seventeen ...

To those of us who knew the pain,
Of valentines that never came;
And those whose names were never called,
When choosing sides for basketball.

It was long ago and far away,
The world was younger than today;
When dreams were all they gave for free,
To ugly duckling girls like me ...

We all play the game, and when we dare,
We cheat ourselves at solitaire;
Inventing lovers on the phone,
Repenting other lives unknown.

That call and say: "Come on, dance with me,"
And murmur vague obscenities;
At ugly girls like me, at seventeen ...

Tell me is the money worth your soul ?

2010-05-31T11:46:00.000+08:00

Ultimately, this is how I feel everytime it is the beginning of the week.

Pf-ft.

So, today aq malas nak work.

Pasal, semalam try to sleep again in the bilik puaka.

Tapi, like cannot make it.

Slept at 5.ooAM in the morning.

Hahaha.

So, I have decided to take half day Emergency Leave.

Submitting my letter today.

ORD mood liiao.

(:

Immortality.

2010-05-30T10:30:00.001+08:00

I'm just a step away,
I'm just a breath away;
Losing my faith today,
Falling off the edge today.

I am just a man,
Not superhuman;
I'm not superhuman,
Someone save me from the hate.

It's just another war,
Just another family torn;
Falling from my faith today,
Just a step from the edge.

Just another day in the world we live.

I need a hero to save me now,
I need a hero, save me now;
I need a hero to save my life,
A hero will save me just in time.

I've gotta fight today,
To live another day;
Speaking my mind today,
My voice will be heard today.

I've gotta make a stand,
But I am just a man;
I'm not superhuman,
My voice will be heard today.

It's just another war,
Just another family torn;
My voice will be heard today,
It's just another kill.

The countdown begins to destroy ourselves.

I need a hero to save me now,
I need a hero, save me now;
I need a hero to save my life,
A hero will save me just in time.

I need a hero to save my life,
I need a hero, just in time;
Save me just in time,
Save me just in time.

Who's gonna fight for what's right ?
Who's gonna help us survive ?
We're in the fight of our lives,
And we're not ready to die.

Who's gonna fight for the weak ?
Who's gonna make 'em believe ?
I've got a hero, I've got a hero,
Living in me.

I'm gonna fight for what's right,
Today I'm speaking my mind;
And if it kills me tonight,
I will be ready to die.

A hero's not afraid to give his life.

A hero's gonna save me just in time.

I need a hero to save me now,
I need a hero, save me now;
I need a hero to save my life,
A hero will save me just in time.

(I need a hero.)

Who's gonna fight for what's right ?
Who's gonna help us survive ?

(I need a hero.)

Who's gonna fight for the weak ?
Who's gonna make 'em believe ?

I've got a hero.

I need a hero.

A hero's gonna save me just in time.

There's a she-wolf in your closet.

2010-05-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

What's somebody like you doing in a place like this ?

2010-05-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

All the desirable things in life are either illegal, expensive, fattening or married to someone else.

2010-05-27T09:06:00.000+08:00

Lazy ...

2010-05-26T17:35:00.001+08:00

Mugging for exams ?

2010-05-25T17:10:00.000+08:00

Adnan Sempit yang merempit.

2010-05-24T17:01:00.000+08:00

Je Suis, Synnta Claus.

2010-05-23T16:52:00.002+08:00

Miss-Understood.

2010-05-22T22:55:00.001+08:00

BabyFats MokMok & Boncit.

2010-05-21T16:25:00.004+08:00

If we live our life in fear, I'll wait a thousand years.
Just to see you smile again.

Sumpah tak sabar nak balik.

Today, I was very late for work.

But, Thank God It's Friday.

The alarm rang but I didn't hear it.

Hahaha.

Tomorrow is Saturday and take kerja.

So, boleh sleep sampai petang.

But will probably meet him early in the afternoon.

Need suggestions on where I should go for lunch / dinner with him tomorrow.

Been to almost every where in Singapore sampai otak mati siiots nak makan mana.

I guess that's all.

Otak mati siiol nak update.

Hahaha.

Is your secret safe tonight and are we ought of sight ?

2010-05-20T23:13:00.003+08:00

It's a pleasure to share one's memories.

Everything remembered is dear, endearing, touching, precious.

At least the past is safe -- though we didn't know it at the time.
We know it now.

Because it's in the past ; because we have survived.

Susan Sontag.

First and foremost, I'd like to wish 2 of the most awesomest people in my world.

They are Faqih Afrizal, my annoying 15 year old brother and Mr. Michael See, a person I have liked and loved from New York City since the first time I talked to him, a Happy Birthday.

Today, it was a last minute plan by Bogeyy so that we all shall go and perang.

Had chapatti at Tekka for dinner.

Before proceeding to Balestier for few rounds / sessions of Defense of the Ancients or DotA at the LAN shop.

Bogeyy macam dahh semakin god like.

Hahaha.

Tapi, the last game was alright.

Technically, we won.

Kita gang Bogeyy up.

Hahaha.

I guess that's all for today.

Feeling a wee bit tired.

Good night.

You will never understand what I am going through.

2010-05-19T16:36:00.003+08:00

I've tried very hard. I've tried to put a fake smile so that the world will think that I am alright. But, it's hard. Deep down, I am crumbling. I have no motivations right now. I feel utterly disappointed. Slowly, it's tearing me apart. I've only got you to confide in and nobody else. But, since you are unwilling, I shall not ask anymore. I'll go through this crazy little thing myself and shall not be a burden to anyone else. I never understand. That's what you claim. Yet, have you tried understanding me ? Have you ever thought for one nano second, how it feels like to be in my shoes ? Nobody will understand. Nobody has ever carried this baggage that I have carried and gone through this obstacle that is so tedious and tiring. I'm tired of people around me constantly nagging and whining at the problems that they have. And, yet, I listen and I try my best to find a solution for them. Time and time again, I wanted to give up. But, if I give up, everyone around me will shatter. I want to be selfish but my livelyhood depends on it. I know that I am poor. I have nothing in my possessions. But, I try my best to earn my keep with my dignity and my self respect still intact. If you feel that it has been a disgrace to know me, I can't be bothered anymore. Because, in my whole life I've never ever been a burden to you or for a matter of fact anyone else. You can call names but, if look down on me for not being on the same platform as you, thank you very much.

Luu tengok gua kecil besar, kecil besar.

2010-05-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

For some awkward reason, I declare that I look awesomely hot in this picture.

First and foremost, a Happy Birthday to Abdul Hafiz a.k.a Bogeyy.

Abang Macho kesayangan aq yang tak sedar diri sama macam matair aq jugak.

Nak step mana nya abang-abang berg.

Hahaha.

Bogeyy dahh tua lahh seyy.

(:

I met with Shida at her place.

As usual.

Ketuk her rokok like super alot.

Hahaha.

Played StarDoll which is like freaking addictive.

Okae, it's a bloody dress up game.

But, who the hell cares.

Kan ?

So, yeah.

I am playing it like right now.

Hahaha.

Nasi ayam at Lorong 1 is so uber awesome.

Hee.

That's all for today.

I guess I'll rape Shida like now.

(:

Headache and stomach cramps.

2010-05-17T17:18:00.001+08:00

I really hate monthly predicaments.

Haish.

I had to take Emergency Leave today because technically, I have no money to see the doctors.

I couldn't get up from bed and I am ultra moody.

Haiyah.

That's all for today.

Stop taking my stuffs without permissions !!!

2 years 1 month and counting.

2010-05-16T08:48:00.008+08:00

Oii.
Lupa ke hari niie hari apa ?
Blob, dahh pukul 12.ooAM sekarang.
Luu ingat uhh pagi bila luu bangun.
Tidak, wa rembat sama luu.
Hee.
Luu jaga uhh.
Wa tunggu.

Yeah, lahh.
Happy Anniversary lahh.
Selalu, I je yang wish.
Chee bye uhh.

P.s Aq sayang kw, okae, blob ?
Kw tetap handsome di mata aq.
Walaupun, kekadang, kw nya perangai is an irritating fat bastard.
Tapi, kw aq nya irritating fat bastard.
And, please uhh.
Jangan step abang-abang macho nak panggil aq budak kecil.
Kita dua nya umur beza setahun je siiaks.
And, and, and, kw lagi gemuk dari aq.
Jangan nak step panggil aq fatty.
Walaupun, aq sedar bontot aq lagi besar dari kw.
Dan, kerana kw nya strength and weaknesses lahh yang buat aq tertarik dekat kw.
Macam mana aq suka korek lubang hidung kw dengan cabut bulu kaki kw, macam tuu lahh.
Okae, sayang kw luhh.
Dahh 2 tahun 1 bulan niie ...

Mana aq nya diamond ring ?

Fopycats.

2010-05-15T16:37:00.000+08:00

Thanks for copy-ing me, bitch.
You have just made me super famous.
(:

P.s Way back then, you were jealous of the boys that I had.
Then, you weren't happy that I had a loving boyfriend who rides a motorbike whom I was at the club with that I am attached to from way back then till now not because of his motorbike.
After that, it was the fedora hat.
Now, it's the maxi dresses that I have worn.
Tidak mengapa.
I love the attention you are giving me.

Disappointment.

2010-05-14T17:47:00.000+08:00

I'm trying my best to be a good daughter and a good person.

It's difficult.

I don't think running away from all my problems is the best solution because that means I'm running away from the obstacles and test that God has given me.

There are so many occasions where we'd have all these conversations.

Yet, every time I beg to differ, you choose not to hear to any of my explanations.

I am an adult now.

I know you'll always treat me like your little girl.

But, I've grown up and my mentality has changed.

I'm no longer that immatured, irresponsible, rebellious spoilt-brat that you once knew.

My perspective have broaden and I think wisely before I make my decisions.

I'm disappointed in every one.

There are many instances that I feel like running away.

It has been 3 years.

I have been patient and accepted my fate.

But, there are limits to everything.

I don't need your excuses.

I need your effort.

Nobody understands how I feel or what I am going through at the moment.

As much as I would love to seek help, who do I ask.

And ...

I don't want to be a burden to everyone else.

Because, everyone have their own problems.

Every time I close my eyes, I keep thinking of it.

Because, I know tomorrow,the same thing is still happening because I haven't found a conclusion.

It's as though you don't bother.

Don't you feel the pain and the struggle ?

I can't help much because I don't have the means to do so.

I rest my case because every time I do, I'll start crying.

Aaaarrrrgggghhhh ...

Money, money and alot of money.

On a lighter note.

Off I go to lose weight at London Weight Management.

Torn.

2010-05-13T15:22:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to start with this blogpost.

Hahaha.

Okae, let us start with yesterday.

(:

Accompanied Nurul to StarHub Shop located at Plaza Singapura.

She has decided to get an I-Phone.

And, after much consideration and psycho-ing, I have decided to get an I-Phone too.

Since Umi is planning to get one as well and Love memang dahh pakai I-Phone pun.

So, bila on the way nak balik.

Decided to call StarHub nya customer service.

Tapi, I don't know why I had such a stupid customer service officer who answered the call.

Chee bye !!!

I asked her a simple question on how much my outstanding balance is.

She told me it was $600++ lahh.

Then, I told her that I knew that there is a $450 early termination fee.

So, how much is my outstanding with out the termination fees.

Dia kata dengan aq, $600++.

What the fuck ?!!

Let's do the math here.

$600++ - $450 = $600++ ?!!

Then, I flared up lahh.

I said, "My outstanding balance with the termination fees is $600++ and you are telling me without the termination fees is still $600++ ?!! Do you even understand a single thing that I am saying. Don't tell me something that I know."

Then, I don't know what the fuck that she is doing and she told me the outstanding is $300++ pulak.

Let's do the math again.

$600++ - $450 = $300++ ?!!

Dahh jadi $700++ siiaks total.

I wasn't happy, so I called again.

Then, I spoke to someone named Subi.

Niie lagi "Cannot Make It" siiaks.

She told me that my outstanding amount payable is $1000++ !!!

Mak kw.

Melampau siiol.

I told her, "Your colleague is telling me one thing and you are telling me another ?"

Siial lahh.

Besar nya pukimak kan perangai ?!!

I haven't even finished my sentence and that bitch put me on hold.

So, I told her that I wanted to speak to her management cause she seems not to understand a single thing that was said.

Pastu, I was in the MRT and the line got disconnected.

And, she called me back.

Hahaha.

And, my outstanding is like $217.12.

Yes, finally.

The right amount.

And then, next month is I-Phone time !!!

(:

Today, super duper embarassing, okae ?

I didn't even realise that I am wearing pants with a huge gaping hole.

Like, what the fuck ?!!

I only realised it when I was in the bathroom.

Hahaha.

So, I had to secure it with safety pins.

Then, I bought a sewing kit from the convenience store.

But, the sewing kit doesn't seem so convenient after all.

I couldn't open it !!!

But, thanks to Umi, she secured them for me.

Super malu ehhk !!!

I guess that is all for today.

Everyone is clearing their time off and most have left early.

I'm waiting for him to finish his job interview and we are out for nasi beriyani.

Hee.

Berat ehhk helmet aq.

Bye !

Into pieces.

2010-05-12T17:58:00.004+08:00

Gahh.
I broke my new compact powder into a million pieces and I just got it.
)':

Beauty in innocence.

2010-05-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

Nurul Ain, she is beautiful.

Congratulations on the new baby girl.

(:

She is so innocent and adorable.

She is so gorgeous.

I will post some pictures soon.

A trip to Kandang Kerbau Hospital was made earlier today with Cik Noii and Jahh.

Welcome to this world, Natasya Najuwa.

Okae lahh, nak lepak dekat atas katil dengan sayang aq Patrick Star dengan SpongeBob SquarePants.

Nights.

Can't get out of bed syndrome.

2010-05-10T17:53:00.000+08:00

God.

Really fucking Monday blues.

Macam nak mati siiaks dekat kerja.

There are alot of things to be done.

Everything has to be rushed.

And everyone is so annoying !

Please uhh.

Aq niie, front line je.

I can't possibly help you with freaking anything.

And, either way ...

I am not a genius and neither am I psychic.

Haish.

Apa lahh korang niie.

Jangan nak marah aq uhh siiol.

Babi.

Lagi-lagi pakcik tua satu niie.

Nak step slang konon dengan aq.

Kw nya English berterabuh, joys.

Eee.

Geram nya.

Haish.

Bye lahh.

Lazy to update.

PizzaSickness.

2010-05-09T23:20:00.003+08:00

Smelling the pizzas are making feel giddy.

Hahaha.

I was at work earlier today at Canadian Pizza Sembawang.

Yeah.

Love gave the wrong information and I ended up travelling to Canadian Pizza Yishun for nothing.

Buat penat aq je.

Rupa nya, Canadian Yishun nya main P.C semua down.

Terpaksa lahh Boss telephone Jean.

Then, Ah Long had to fetch me.

Love was jealous cause I was riding another man's bike.

Eyy, no choice, okae ?

Kalau I naik cab, lagi you mengamuk.

Hahaha.

And, nak claim dari Jean ...

Jangan harap lahh kan.

So, Ah Long fetched me using his Spark yang tak stable and foot rest dia adjust tinggi nak mampus.

Siie Ah Long tuu dahh kurus, aq rasa macam aq niie badak siiol duduk atas motor dia.

Hahaha.

Tadi, busy nak mampus.

Aq makan mee soto halfway, pastu benda tuu jatuh.

Cheebs.

Pukul 7.3oPM, order semua jam.

Oven was full of pizza and the calls came in non stop.

Haus aq dia buat nya.

Table pun dahh tak ada space nak letak pizza.

Stack lahh semua kan.

Pastu, terpaksa bilang semua customer yang delivery time will be 2HOURS to 2HOUR 15MINUTES.

Melampau ehhk ?

Abeyy, Jin Han stress.

Kesian dia.

Hahaha.

Abeyy, ada orang niie punya leceh nak order sandwich.

Cakap je yang sandwich sold out.

Hahaha.

Pastu, he fetched me pasal I don't know how to get out from Canadian Pizza Sembawang.

Tempat ulu nak mampus.

Aq lapar gila.

I told Love that I was craving for nasi beriyani.

Nak carik makan pun susah.

Haish.

End up makan tempat yang tak sedap.

Sedih, joys.

Nasi beriyani pun tak ada.

Aq makan nasi ayam goreng Thai tapi plain and tak sedap.

Nak muntah.

Menyesal.

Tau aq makan nasi lemak siiol !!!

Okae lahh.

Sampai di sini.

Penat gila.

Besok pun work again.

Freaking Monday blues.

I can feel it.

):

By the way, Mama ...

Happy Mother's Day to you.

Lupa nak wish.

Hahaha.

Busy sangat lahh.

But, thanks for being the greatest person I've ever known.

What ever we are going through together right now is really a test from God.

Insyallah, we will make it through.

Sometimes, the conversations we had every night will make me cry.

I really hate what is happening to us now.

But, I've to be strong.

Just like you are.

Post Secret at BlogSpot.

A shocking news.

2010-05-08T23:42:00.001+08:00

The original picture is effin ugly so I decided to fully edit it.
Hahaha.
Do I have what it takes to be Singapore's Next Top Model ?
Macam faham !!!

Super stuffed.

Was out with Love today.

Iron Man 2 was freaking awesome.

But, super stuffed with laksa from New Hawa Restaurant.

Steam gila lahh seyy.

Earlier today, Love was stuck at Caltex petrol kiosk that was located somewhere along Upper Thomson Road.

It was raining like mad.

He was stuck there for almost an hour or so.

It was such a beautiful day to sleep.

Hahaha.

We headed to Singapore Post Centre to get all the stuffs.

Facial cleanser and toner by Body Satin makes my face feels good.

I am so going to start purchasing it every month.

Headed to Mustafa Centre next in search of Love's stuff.

The personnel working there are mildly retarded because they have no idea what pantyliners are.

So, we ended up walking around in circles.

Haiyoh.

I will post pictures soon of outings with Kakak.

I do not have possesions of them yet.

That's all for today.

Working at Canadian Yishun tomorrow from 11.ooAM to 9.ooPM.

Bummer !

):

Psychological Paradox.

2010-05-07T10:50:00.004+08:00

She had something to confess to,
But you don't have the time so;
Look the other way.

You will wait until it's over,
To reveal what you'd never shown her;
Too little much too late.

Too long trying to resist it,
You've just gone and missed it;
It's escaped your world.

Can you see that I am needing,
Begging for so much more;
Than you could ever give.

And I don't want you to adore me,
Don't want you to ignore me;
When it pleases you.

And I'll do it on my own.

I have played in every toilet,
But you still want to spoil it;
To prove I've made a big mistake.

Too long trying to resist it,
You've just gone and missed it;
It's escaped your world.

Can you see that I am needing,
Begging for so much more;
Than you could ever give.

And I don't want you to adore me,
Don't want you to ignore me;
When it pleases you.

And I'll do it on my own.

Annoyed.

2010-05-05T14:36:00.000+08:00

Disappointed. Mutilated. Suffocated. Unwanted.

Postponed.

2010-05-04T08:54:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 days since the whole predicament started.

Some people were disappointed.

Others were just lost for words.

The naggings have finally stopped.

Maybe, she was right.

Nobody knows how it feels like to be alone.

Like a virus, the body is fighting to get use of the heartbeat that surrounds.

To keep it or to let go ?

No answer comprehends.

Suddenly, the childish and naive one disappeared.

A greater responsibilty has surfaced.

And, with her I shall be.

Who's is it, anyway ?

2010-05-03T17:44:00.002+08:00

After paying all the bills that were due, I'm practically almost broke.

Pfft.

I know.

I am feeling super stressed again.

He has arranged for me to work part time as I usually do during public holidays so, I hope it'll ease my finances.

Yesterday, an unfortunate event has happened.

I really don't know how I am suppose to react.

Right in front of my eyes, history has never failed to repeat itself a million times.

Why is there such cruel fate ?

I was weakened.

How does it feel surrounded by all the naive-ness and then facing it alone with no one to hold.

But, there is no point of regretting it.

You can't turn back time.

On a lighter note, it's a planned outing with the Synergy ladies.

Till then.

Expecting kerana sangkut.

2010-05-02T23:40:00.001+08:00

I really don't know what to do or what to say.

History has repeated a million times right in front of my eyes.

At times, I feel vulnerable.

Sometimes, when you are naive and young, you never really thought of the consequences.

Suddenly, everything in front of my eyes seemed to crumble.

The immune systems have shut down.

Laying there and feeling weak.

Where has the strength gone to ?

Please protect her.

God bless.

SushiRush.

2010-05-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

As usual.

I'm still contemplating.

Haiyoh.

How uhh ?

BlackBerry ke I-Phone.

Tak habis-habis.

Hahaha.

Outing with him was filling.

Ate too much.

Shopped like mad at Mustafa Shopping Centre.

And, new maxi dress is love.

Feeling hotstuff, yo.

I guess that's all for today.

Not really in the mood to update.

(:

Felix Fosho.

2010-04-30T14:30:00.000+08:00

P.s I predicted that, somehow.

Yeehaa ! We are adults now and we need to talk.

2010-04-29T17:43:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to say today except for the fact that today it was pretty hectic.

The launch of the new project went on really smoothly except for a few minor technical glitches.

Super broke now but pay day is tomorrow.

Woo.

I can't wait for an awesome lepak session with Kakak.

Memekik lahh seyy.

I guess this is it today.

Will update tomorrow.

Goddess in her purple dress.

2010-04-28T12:54:00.003+08:00

A sweet enough proposal made, 2 plane tickets for a trip a million miles away and a very famous and tall racer.

2010-04-27T11:29:00.007+08:00

If I told you I was going away,
Would you stop me and make me stay ?
Would you talk to me and remind me of the days,
Would you listen to the words I'll say ?

If I told you I wanted love and care,
Would you tell me that you'll always be there ?
Would you be there for me if I ever feel scared,
Can I ever feel the love that was once shared ?

On a lighter note, today, Nurul gave me a maxi dress.

No, wait.

That didn't come out right.

I bought from her a purple maxi dress because, it was too figure hugging from her.

It's beautiful !

I can't wait to wear it.

Hee.

Anyways, nothing much to update today because, technically there were so many things that has to be done.

2 briefings on the same day !

Can you imagine that ?

Next week, there are new tasks that are being handed to me and I'm afraid it'll be too busy for me to blog.

More upcoming projects to handle.

Pfft.

Friday's makan and rounding sessions with my dearest Kakak and Bestie / Cousin Nina is cancelled because Bestie / Cousin Nina's boyfriend-soon-to-be-husband is working and Thursday I am very broke.

Decided to postpone it till next week though.

Can't wait !

On Friday, I decided to hop by Kakak's place and perhaps another memekak session at GrandLink.

This month is officially a tight month.

The irony of it.

Yet, struggling to obtain and clock the hours I am suppose to.

Anyways, I guess this is it for today.

I am kind of brain dead for a minute.

If.

Let me repeat if.

If I am hardworking enough, I might just update twice.

Bye !!!

Ohhs.

And ...

I am still undecided against the BlackBerry or I-Phone.

Gahh.

He got his I-Phone last night.

Say hello to his new girlfriend, I-Phone.

P.s Sometimes, I sleep with utter disbelief, full or disappointment and resentment.

PitBull in Singapore

♥

DATE : 18 May 2010, Tuesday.

TIME : 2000HOURS.

DURATION : 60MINUTES.

VENUE(S): Fort Canning Park.

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee) :
Standard - S$85
Event Day - S$95

Please add to above price $3 Booking Fee per ticket for tickets above $20 and $1 Booking Fee per ticket for tickets $20 and below.

Charges include GST where applicable.

Click HERE to buy tickets for PitBull's awesome performance.

Volunteering pornstar ?

2010-04-26T15:27:00.004+08:00

A lady wanted to know which theatre is showing R21 movies as she wants to go and watch them. She claimed that she has a nice body and wishes to star in the R21 movies. Thus, she wants to know who she can and should approach. She was also very persistent and asked further on such subject matter.
- Crazy lady at 1500HOURS.

Left side abdominal pain is often more common in women and young adults, as a cause of abdominal pain.

The causes of a left sided abdominal pain are legion and runs the gamut from diverticulitis, irritable bowel syndrome, kidney infections, kidney stone, bowel problems, like diverticulitis, and constipation, to pain arising from muscles and skin over the left side of the abdomen.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Left side abdominal pain is defined as pain occurring in the abdomen, to the left of an imaginary straight line drawn from the center of just under chest through the umbilicus or belly button, down to the top of the genitalia.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Any disease process affecting organs or structures on the left side of the abdomen can cause pain there.

Left side abdominal pain can also result from organs or structures far removed from the abdomen or near it, or even from pain spreading from other part of the abdomen.

It is worth remembering that causes of central abdominal pain or even right side abdominal pain can over lap and cause pain on the left side of the abdomen.

As in other parts of the body, pain on the left abdomen can occur from disease affecting the following organs found there.

Organs and structures found in the left side of the abdomen are :

• Left edge of the liver
• The spleen
• Body and tail of the pancreas
• The stomach
• Left half of the transverse colon or large intestine
• The descending colon
• Sigmoid colon
• Left adrenal gland
• Left kidney
• Left ureter
• Left ovary in women
• Left fallopian tube in women
• Blood vessels on the left side of the abdomen including the aorta
• Muscles of the wall of the left side of the abdomen
• Nerves on the left side of the abdomen
• Skin covering the left side of the abdomen.

Structures not found on the abdomen that could still cause pain on the left side of the abdomen include :

• Lower part of the left lung
• Left half of the diaphragm
• The heart

In a few individuals, their appendix, and all other structures found normally on the right side of the body could be on the left, in a medical condition called Situs Invertus.

In those individuals, causes of left sided abdominal pain are actually those causing right side abdominal pain in normal individuals.

Here, we will concentrate on causes of left sided abdominal pain in normal setting.

As states above, common causes of left side abdominal pain includes :

• Heartburns
• Gastritis
• Stomach ulcer
• Pancreatitis
• Stomach tumour
• Irritable bowel syndrome
• Diverticulitis
• Crohns disease
• Ulcerative colitis
• Polycystic ovarian syndrome - PCOS
• Twisted or Ruptured ovarian cyst
• Ectopic pregnancy
• Pelvic Inflammatory Disease - PID
• Endometrosis
• Coelic disease
• Constipation
• Bowel tumour
• Pulmoanry embolism - blood clots in the lungs
• Hereditary Angioedema
• Sickle Cell Disease
• Porphyria

...

The list goes on and on like that of causes of abdominal pain.

For ease of diagnosis, and to be able to understand the possible cause of left side abdominal pain in your case, causes of abdominal pain in this region is divided into causes of upper left side abdominal pain, if the abdominal pain is felt on the left side of the abdomen above the level of the umbilicus, and a lower left side abdominal pain if the pain occurs on the left side of the abdomen below the level of the umbilicus or belly button.

Follow on this to read about possible causes discussed.

You can use the search link provided below to search this site or the web generally for any of the above listed causes not discussed here.

Disclaimers

The information presented on this site is strictly for educational purposes only.

It by no means constitutes a recommendation of treatment or substitute for medical consultations.

Medical knowledge is dynamic.

Whilst every care has been taken to ensure the accuracy and up-to- date-ness of the content of this site, www.abdopain.com or its owners or partners will not accept responsibility or liability of any sort for the use of information here-in in any manner.

Where were you tonight ?

2010-04-25T23:33:00.002+08:00

As I lay in bed one April night,
I couldn't understand my sorrow plight;
I tossed and I turned sweating in bed,
I tried to make sense of the thoughts played in my head.

There were so many unforgettable incidents,
There were plenty that were purposely forgotten;
But as I searched deeper in the corners of my heart,
It then struck me that was where it had start.

Meowing Fiddle.

2010-04-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

Okae.

Today, I am going to talk abit about my history.

Everyone has been asking me, how did I get to know an ang moh or a caucasian from New York City when I am stuck in a tiny red dot called Singapore.

It started sometime in 2005 or maybe 2006.

I was playing pool on Yahoo! with a certain Mr. Kato8225 and I suddenly had to go.

I had school and mind you, I was playing pool for the last 5 hours.

I was going cross eyed from all the pool playing.

Hahaha.

Anyway, I don't know what had struck me to give him my blog address which I did.

I didn't read much into it and technically, I did indicate an email address on my blog.

It was about maybe 3 days to a week later when I received an unexpected email from him !

Damn, I was mad excited.

Like, hello ?

An American is keeping in touch with me !

Lol.

A 16 year old Asian girl is in touch with someone a million kilometres / miles away.

He emailed me and he told me that he has gotten MSN so that we could talk.

And, I was to hit him up.

Hahaha.

Which I'm glad I did.

And, everyday since the day he had signed up for MSN, we'd chat our lives for hours like everything else didn't matter.

And, yes, I'd have fights with my brother because I use to hog the P.C all day.

Hahaha.

And then, we took a step further in our friendship / relationship.

He asked me for my cell phone number.

And, yes.

I gave it to him.

I was kind of expecting him to give me a call immediately.

But he didn't.

So, I had to wait in anticipation.

And, then, he bloody hell called !

I just woken up, that was about 7.ooAM to 9.ooAM in the morning and I sounded pretty stupid on the phone.

And then, he laughed out loud.

Because I was itchy and mosquitoes were biting me.

F.Y.I ehhk, during our first conversation, I spoke like a normal Singaporean.

No foreign accents or etc.

Just a normal Asian girl with Singlish and stuff like that and he couldn't understand a single thing that was coming out of my mouth.

And, we would talk for 5 hours every single day.

And there were instances where by we'd quarrel on MSN because he is asking me a whole lot about my religion.

Which is Islam.

Technically, there some questions that I can't answer because, I am not knowledgable enough.

And, not to mention that he was persistent into asking me to come over to New York City.

And then, I had to keep convincing him to come to Singapore.

Bloody hell, kan ?

Datang je lahh Singapore !

Susah sangat ke ?

Hahaha.

And, after all that arguments, we are still talking on the phone.

So, this is my story.

Hahaha.

And, he used to think that Muslims all over the world are burqa wearing people and the men don't shave their beards and we never bathe.

Hello ?

I shower at least twice a day, I shave at least once in 2 days and no, I don't wear a burqa but my Mama wears a scarve / tudung.

And, Singapore is not infested with coconut trees and I do not live under a coconut tree and we are not located in China.

And, hell no.

We are not in the middle of nowhere.

And I think he has an obsessive disorder to tell all his American friends that I am Asian, I live in Singapore and I am a Muslim.

That's all !

5 years and counting, we still enjoy each other's company on the phone.

I just wished that he'd come here.

BlackBerry or I-Phone ?

2010-04-23T22:13:00.001+08:00

Alamak, dilemma uhh !

I don't know which one I should get.

Blackberry or I-Phone ?!!

Pfft.

I want to get a BlackBerry, well, because it's uber cool.

And he wants me to get an I-phone pasal he is getting an I-Phone in May.

And if I get a BlackBerry, I can IM with Abang Syidiq, Kak Jiji and even Nina.

But, if I get an I-Phone, since I am constantly texting him, it'll be free of charge.

Gahh.

Dilemma nya.

Anyway, right now, I am using a Nokia E63.

Which looks like the BlackBerry.

Well, almost.

How uhh ?

BlackBerry ke I-Phone niie ?

Help !!!

Dangerously.

2010-04-22T13:29:00.005+08:00

Sometimes I get so weird,
I even freak myself out;
I laugh myself to sleep,
It's my lullaby.

Sometimes I drive so fast,
Just to feel the danger;
I wanna scream,
It makes me feel alive.

Is it enough to love ?

Is it enough to breath ?

Somebody rip my heart out,
And leave me here to bleed.

Is it enough to die ?

Somebody save my life.

I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

“Love is neither disapproved by religion, nor prohibited by the law (i.e. the Shariah), for every heart is in Allah’s hand.” — Unknown.

2010-04-21T17:05:00.005+08:00

And, this is something interesting I got from http://www.socialisimo.tumblr.com/

Afghan Women

The vast majority of Afghanistan’s population professes to be followers of Islam.

Over 1400 years ago, Islam demanded that men and women be equal before God, and gave them various rights such the right to inheritance, the right to vote, the right to work, and even choose their own partners in marriage.

For centuries now in Afghanistan, women have been denied these rights either by official government decree or by their own husbands, fathers, and brothers.

During the rule of the Taliban (1996 - 2001), women were treated worse than in any other time or by any other society.

They were forbidden to work, leave the house without a male escort, not allowed to seek medical help from a male doctor, and forced to cover themselves from head to toe, even covering their eyes.

Women who were doctors and teachers before, suddenly were forced to be beggars and even prostitutes in order to feed their families.

Since the fall of the Taliban in late 2001, many would agree that the political and cultural position of Afghan women has improved substantially.

The recently adopted Afghan constitution states that “the citizens of Afghanistan - whether man or woman- have equal rights and duties before the law”.

So far, women have been allowed to return back to work, the government no longer forces them to wear the all covering burqa, and they even have been appointed to prominent positions in the government.

Despite all these changes many challenges still remain.

The repression of women is still prevalent in rural areas where many families still restrict their own mothers, daughters, wives and sisters from participation in public life.

They are still forced into marriages and denied a basic education.

Numerous school for girls have been burned down and little girls have even been poisoned to death for daring to go to school.

The harsh facts :

• Every 30 minutes, an Afghan woman dies during childbirth.

• 87 percent of Afghan women are illiterate.

• 30 percent of girls have access to education in Afghanistan.

• 1 in every 3 Afghan women experience physical, psychological or sexual violence.

• 44 years is the average life expectancy rate for women in Afghanistan.

• 70 to 80 percent of women face forced marriages in Afghanistan.

An irony that we practice the same faith but we live two complete different lives.

Alhamdullilah.

Despite the fact that my life is full of struggle, I do not face the calamity that these women or even children are facing.

Anyways, let's try and paint a brighter picture.

(:

I need to do some soul searching.

Really.

Hmm ...

My mind says I have to be here but, my heart says I should go.

But, I don't know.

I do not want to make any hasty decisions.

Technically, I have stopped asking because I stopped caring.

I feel confused at the moment because I don't know what I should do with my life.

Come on, I am almost 21.

Yet, I feel utterly misplaced sometimes.

On most days, I feel that I am at the wrong place.

So, where should I be ?

Aaarrrggghhh.

I need a plan ticket to literally no where.

I have goals and dreams that I want to pursue.

But, what's stopping me ?

And, damn the stomache aches right now.

Pfft.

What you give is exactly what you receive,
So put me in a cage and lock me away;
And I’ll play the games that you want me to play.

Blueberry Yum Yum.

2010-04-20T17:32:00.000+08:00

I was slightly pissed last night because it was raining heavily like mad and I was drenched.

Thank goodness I saw a colleague while waiting for the rain to subside a little.

But, even though we had an umbrella with us, it did little to shelter us from the pouring rain.

Upon reaching the MRT station, I was dripping and soaking wet.

Anyways, I headed to Braddel to meet Shida.

As, I had a mission to get some stuff from her.

Hehehe.

And, she was kind enough to lend me some spare clean and dry clothes which technically were a wee bit to small for me.

Hahaha.

But, I was warm !

Hahaha.

She had some leftover macaroni and fried chicken drumlets.

Wahh.

Best.

Hehehe.

And, Vin Diesel on Triple X is super hot lahh seyy.

Look at his shoulders.

My goodness.

Fetish siiaks.

I need a man who has his shoulders.

Hahaha.

Bila lahh you nak badan macam niie ehhk ?

I want, I want, I want !

Lol.

I am melting right now.

Anyways, I opted for a half day emergency leave today because when I woke up, I wasn't feeling well.

I had a massive headache and super bad flu.

I think it's because I was caught in the rain last night.

Uber, bummer.

I was watching documentaries again last night before getting to bed.

I was slightly pissed because, someone or something is preventing me from falling a sleep last night.

Gahh.

I swore to God that I heard someone calling my name from a distace.

It sounded female.

She called my name several times.

Well, I ignored it because, technically, I was concentrating on the movie.

It was about jihad and stuff.

Scary shit.

Because on one clip, I saw a woman in burqa being shot in front of thousands of spectators in the middle of the stadium.

“Terrorism is a crime against humanity. Islam is a religion that means ‘peace’. In the Holy Quran, Allah commands believers to bring peace and security to the world. The Islamic morality is the cure for terrorism, not the source of it.”
— Unknown.

Seram kan ?

I know.

And, they just left her there.

Anyway, before I heard the entity calling out my name, I heard furniture being dragged across the room.

The sounds came as though it was from upstairs.

Occasionally, I will hear marbles being thrown.

Like, what the hell ?

Maybe, it was the upstairs neighbour so I just ignored it.

Then, I heard something being dropped on purpose from the kitchen.

That's when the name calling started.

I was still watching the movie though so I ignored it.

The movie is super insteresting.

But, I was getting sleepy so, I decide to switch off the PSP and try getting some shut eye.

But, I tossed and turned for 1 hour and every time I fell asleep, I would be woken up by sudden movements and sounds.

I am so tired and so freaking pissed.

Anyways, that is one of the reasons why I opted for a half day urgent leave.

Surprisingly, I didn't have a proper lunch.

I had a sandwich with a side of baked beans.

Then, I had a chocolate chip cookie.

And, I am not hungry.

Hahaha.

I guess that is all for today.

Super tired, now !

Bye.

P.s Why do I always get weird people calling me ?!!

These streets will make you feel brand new.

2010-04-19T16:50:00.004+08:00

I want to be the very best.

Perhaps, I thought I'd be home today.

But, maybe not.

Currently updating while I am at work and feeling very cold.

I think these people have super thick pig skins or something.

Dahh sejuk pun masih nak turn on the damn fan.

Back to happier and warmer thoughts.

WYhA gave me a good offer today and I am still thinking about it.

I mean, I still have to negotiate and think about it.

I mean, I am going to be doing it from home.

So, that means I will not be spending any money for transport and stuff.

I am not sure.

He told me that right now, I am not earning much.

Which is technically true.

Aaarrrggghhh.

Stress lahh kalau fikiran pasal duit niie.

Ntah lahh.

Aq rasa, aq macam malas nak update lahh kan.

Pasal, I didn't do anything awesome today and all the calls are merepek and weird.

I have no idea why.

Do we look like an information counter for the whole Singapore to you ?!!

Heck, no.

Dahh, malas.

Meeting Shida to get some barang from her.

And I finish work at 6.ooPM.

Gahh.

I think he is exercising and burning his fats at home.

It's such a wonderful weather to sleep today.

Anyways, it annoys me when people try to pretend their name is something else when it is actually something else.

Originality, please.

Puii.

Okae, being crappy now.

I guess that's it.

Bye.

By the way, I don't normally do this but I want to sedekah kan Al Fatiha to Achik Spin.

Sobs.

I grew up listening to his song.

Walaupun lahh kw tak kenal aq, tapi, aq favourite sangat dengan lagu kw !

Innalilahh.

Ya Allah, cucuri lahh rahmat ke atas roh Allahyarham dan tempat kan beliau di kalangan mereka yang beramal soleh.

Amin.

I want a mixtape of you.

2010-04-18T23:27:00.003+08:00

I finally saw her today and she was extremely adorable.

I was afraid of cradling her in my arms as she is ever so fragile.

I spoke to her and she looked and responded to me ever so innocently.

I am glad everything is alright.

Alhamdullilah.

P.s Cousin, kalau dahh melepak tuu, jangan lupa ajak aq and bawak dia sekali.

Anyway, Kak came over to my place and the kids were super excited.

Dahh lama ke tak jumpa grandparents nya dekat Balestier ?

Hahaha.

Anyways, I feel that I am an awesome inspiration because technically some of my colleagues were successfully tempted to start blogging.

Hahaha.

It started 2 weeks back and everyone wanted me to help them ammend and edit their blogs.

Hahaha.

I am so happy that I am such an influential figure.

Lol.

Maybe, I should start charging people an hourly rated fee for every blog I amend and create.

Hahaha.

Then, I'll be rich.

Hahaha.

Anyways, nothing much to update today.

I guess because work starts tomorrow and I sort of dread it somewhere along the road.

I really missed school so much and people who complain that school is such a chore are so darn wrong.

Work is a killer !

Anyways, I am off watching documentaries on PSP again and I feel another tinge of emotions flushing through somehow.

Haa.

I feel like organizing a random awesome lepak session too.

P.s I want to dance all night with margarita on my hand and shoot at the sky.

Which mosque do you go to in New York City ?

2010-04-17T22:22:00.008+08:00

Promotional Service.

Anybody interested in air conditioning servicing ?

Currently, we are having a promotion for servicing of 3 air conditioning units at $70.

Interested ?

Kindly email me at generationgirl2030@hotmail.com, okae ?

Thanks.

I understand that the weather is uber hot and humid, so you might want to do something about it.

Lest, it breaks down.

That will really suck.

Hee.

Anyways, met him today and headed to Far East Plaza for an awesome filling dinner at Cahaya Restaurant.

At first, we were undecided of where to have dinner or maybe our late, late lunch.

Because, today it rained like mad.

I took hours to get ready.

And, I am proud of what I had achieved after 1 hour of making myself up and looking pretty.

In the end, I wore shorts.

Hahaha.

We ordered the delicious and mouth watering tom yum soup, and fried wantons.

I ordered the kwayy teow goreng with seafood and cockles and he ordered the fishball noodles.

Next, we headed to Chippy's British Take Away and ordered fried Mars bars with vanilla ice cream and chocolate syrup.

The only reason I hate going to Far East Plaza on a Saturday is because the place is super infested with mat reps and minah reps who are YPs.

No, wait.

Just YPs.

Underage oii !

OMFG.

What the hell am I typing about, I ain't even got a darn clue.

Okae, let me explain in simple terms.

I saw a group of YPs, me and him were at the 5th floor enjoying our mouth watering spread and this kecoh group of kids yang kurang kasih sayang and carik perhatian was talking super loudly.

He was like eating and he said to me, "Sumpah, meluat."

Memang meluat pun.

I was having the tom yum soup siia and they suddenly spoke like super loudly.

Tak terbegik dahh bagus tuu.

After our meal, we headed downstairs to get a pack of cigarettes and I think I swear I saw them smoking secretly.

Nasib baik aq bukan NEA officer !

Kalau tak, memang dahh sound and tangkap pun.

Damn.

And, he was such an idiot making fun of me when I went to buy my cigarettes.

"Uncle, you better check her NRIC siia cause she is under age. Cannot buy cigarette one."

Iye lahh tuu.

Uncle kedai tuu tak check pun NRIC aq.

Hahaha.

Tapi, it reminded me of the same incident that happened.

I was at Toa Payoh MRT station and went to the nearest convenience store to get my pack of cigarettes.

I actually dressed quite formally on that day.

Hahaha.

Then, the girl asked for my NRIC.

I look young.

Woo hoo.

And, when she saw my age, she apologised.

I was like, "It's alright."

And smiled on my way back home.

We didn't do nothing much today because we were super stuffed from all that eating.

Headed to Mustafa Centre next to get some toiletteries and headed home.

Well, we rode aimlessly at first.

Then, I headed home.

So, here I am watching some documentaries on PSP.

I finally told Mama and him of the conversation I had with Mike and his Muslim friend the other day.

Hahaha.

The conversation was hilarious because he is asking me everything I know about my religion.

And, I think he was convinced when he greeted me with "Assalamualaikum" and I responded with "Walaikumsalam."

And, I could hear him jumping for joy when he said I was a good person cause I was a Muslim and I am the same religion as him.

Hahaha.

He even asked me if I knew when does the fasting month occur.

Duhh.

Ramadhan.

And, what is after the month of Ramadhan.

Syawal lahh.

And, he even asked if I knew what is Idul Adha.

Well, it's Aidil Adha here.

And, yes, Muslims who can afford it will perform the Haj or the pilgrimage.

Hahaha.

So, yes.

Aq Islam !

The funniest question of the day was, "Which mosque do you go to in New York City. Is it the one in Queens ?"

Hahaha.

Hello, I am in Singapore and I have never, ever been to New York !

I guess, unless you start talking to people from the other side of the world, they wouldn't know how you are living your life and how they are living theirs.

Unless, we start opening our minds to the different cultures and religions that exists on this Earth, we will always be shallow in our hearts.

It's not to late to always keep learning about our counterparts from the other side of the globe.

I am off to watch more documentaries now.

I think I might start getting a wee bit emotional soon.

Till then.

P.s It is a confirmed no.

We have been in ♥ for 2 years.

2010-04-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

Aaarrrggghhh ...

2010-04-15T20:36:00.002+08:00

After having that conversation with him, it left me speechless again.

I hated the fact that he told me everything last minute.

Sumpah my face was super cuak and nak nangis.

Is this another test from God ?

But, I am not giving it up.

I have decided !

And we are sticking to it.

Honestly, my mind is chaotic at the moment.

Why ?

Ntah lahh.

I left home early today from work.

Ntah apa angin bebudak niie semua.

Surprisingly, everyone is here.

So, because there is no space to sit, TL sent me back home.

So, I left at 2.3oPM.

Hahaha.

I looked shagged by the way.

Maybe, cause last night I didn't have a good night's rest.

Too much thinking perhaps.

Stressed out.

Anyways, sleeping at Maghrib is not advisable.

Semalam, aq mimpi yang bukan-bukan.

Astarghfirgullah-Al-Azim.

I dreamt that Adeq died.

Sedih kan mimpi aq ?

Hahaha.

And, when I woke up, there were tears in my eyes.

Okae, yes.

I cried in my sleep.

I guess that is all for today.

Going to eat dinner and off to bed soon.

Super, duper, uber penat !

And, aq stress !!!

Macam mana Melayu nak maju ? Macam faham.

2010-04-14T21:00:00.005+08:00

If I had a baby, I'll name them either Yariiqa Miieshyel Luna or Synnta Aryssa Qyinndiiel for baby girls.

Miqhail Qyureshy Luqman or Shuuqran Aqiiel Dylawwar for baby boys.

Hahaha.

This was the conversation I had with Hani.

Next week, she'll find out the gender of her baby.

No wait.

Maybe, babies.

So, technically I can't wait.

Okae, yeah.

Baby names.

Hahaha.

It's the same name as mine for the baby girl.

I know.

I love my name.

Hahaha.

Lol.

:D

Anyways, we thought, I mean, Umi, Nurul and myself were going to an interview for an administrative position for a newly opened spa franchise.

And guess what ?

It's L.F.I, again !!!

Gahh.

Yeah.

Macam mana Melayu nak maju.

Hello, I have heard of it a million times lahh ehhk.

If you people are running a legitimate business, kenapa nak kena tipu orang.

Kenapa tak nak cakap yang korang dari L.F.I je.

Kenapa mesti nak beat about the bush.

I don't give a damn if people say that I am stuck up and stuff like that because I don't give them a chance to explain themselves.

Why should I ?

I have heard of them too many times and your schemes are always the same.

Eyy, bukan aq tak belajar niie semua.

Aq belajar lahh siiol.

Tapi, korang nya cara sama macam Ponzi nya scheme.

So, buang masa lahh kan.

And, macam mana Melayu nak maju pasal kita tak bagi korang oppurtunity to listen.

F.Y.I, sebelum kw tanya diri kw dulu macam mana Melayu nak maju, kw ada fikir tak dalam kepala otak kw yang dahh bebal tuu.

Orang Melayu kita niie ada duit ke nak buang gituu macam ?

Ntah lahh.

Korang semua, pakai kepala otak fikir lorr.

What is Multi Level Marketing ?
Taken from Wikipedia.com.

Multi-level marketing (MLM), (also called network marketing, direct selling, referral marketing, and pyramid selling is a term that describes a marketing structure used by some companies as part of their overall marketing strategy.

The structure is designed to create a marketing and sales force by compensating promoters of company products not only for sales they personally generate, but also for the sales of other promoters they introduce to the company, creating a downline of distributors and a hierarchy of multiple levels of compensation in the form of a pyramid.

The products and company are usually marketed directly to consumers and potential business partners by means of relationship referrals and word of mouth marketing.

MLM companies have been a frequent subject of controversy as well as the target of lawsuits.

Criticisms have focused on their similarity to illegal pyramid schemes, price-fixing of products, high initial start-up costs, emphasis on recruitment of lower-tiered salespeople over actual sales, encouraging if not requiring salespeople to purchase and use the company's products, potential exploitation of personal relationships which are used as new sales and recruiting targets, complex and sometimes exaggerated compensation schemes, and cult-like techniques which some groups use to enhance their members enthusiasm and devotion.

Not all MLM companies operate the same way, and MLM groups have persistently denied that their techniques are anything but legitimate business practices.

Setup.

Independent, unsalaried salespeople of multi-level marketing, referred to as distributors (or associates, independent business owners, dealers, franchise owners, sales consultants, consultants, independent agents, etc.), represent the company that produces the products or provides the services they sell.

They are awarded a commission based upon the volume of product sold through their own sales efforts as well as that of their downline organization.

Independent distributors develop their organizations by either building an active customer base, who buy direct from the company, or by recruiting a downline of independent distributors who also build a customer base, thereby expanding the overall organization.

Additionally, distributors can also earn a profit by retailing products they purchased from the company at wholesale price.

This arrangement of distributors earning a commission based on the sales of their independent efforts as well as the leveraged sales efforts of their downline is similar to franchise arrangements where royalties are paid from the sales of individual franchise operations to the franchiser as well as to an area or regional manager.

Commissions are paid to multi-level marketing distributors according to the company’s compensation plan.

There can be individuals at multiple levels of the structure receiving royalties from a single person's sales.

Legality & Legitimacy.

MLM businesses operate in the United States in all 50 states and in more than 100 other countries, and new businesses may use terms like "affiliate marketing" or "home-based business franchising".

However, many pyramid schemes try to present themselves as legitimate MLM businesses.

The FTC states "Steer clear of multilevel marketing plans that pay commissions for recruiting new distributors.

They're actually illegal pyramid schemes."

Why is pyramiding dangerous ?

Because plans that pay commissions for recruiting new distributors inevitably collapse when no new distributors can be recruited.

And when a plan collapses, most people-except perhaps those at the very top of the pyramid-end up empty-handed.

In a 2004 United States Federal Trade Commission (FTC) Staff Advisory letter to the Direct Selling Association states :

Much has been made of the personal, or internal, consumption issue in recent years.

In fact, the amount of internal consumption in any multi-level compensation business does not determine whether or not the FTC will consider the plan a pyramid scheme.

The critical question for the FTC is whether the revenues that primarily support the commissions paid to all participants are generated from purchases of goods and services that are not simply incidental to the purchase of the right to participate in a money-making venture.

The FTC warns "Not all multilevel marketing plans are legitimate. Some are pyramid schemes.

It’s best not to get involved in plans where the money you make is based primarily on the number of distributors you recruit and your sales to them, rather than on your sales to people outside the plan who intend to use the products."

Research is your best tool and gives eight steps to follow :

1) Find — and study — the company’s track record.
2) Learn about the product.
3) Ask questions.
4) Understand any restrictions.
5) Talk to other distributors (beware shills).
6) Consider using a friend or adviser as a neutral sounding board or for a gut check.
7) Take your time.
8) Think about whether this plan suits your talents and goals

However there are people who hold that all MLMs are nothing more than pyramid schemes even if they are legal rendering the whole issue of a particular MLM being legal moot.

What is a Pyramid Scheme ?
Taken from Wikipedia.com.

A pyramid scheme is a non-sustainable business model that involves the exchange of money primarily for enrolling other people into the scheme, without any product or service being delivered.

Pyramid schemes are a form of fraud.

Pyramid schemes are illegal in many countries including Albania, Australia, Brazil, Bulgaria, Canada, China, Colombia, France, Germany, Hungary, Iceland, Iran, Italy, Japan, Malaysia, Mexico, Nepal, The Netherlands, New Zealand, Norway, the Philippines, Poland, Portugal, Romania, South Africa, Sri Lanka, Switzerland, Thailand, the United Kingdom, and the United States.

These types of schemes have existed for at least a century some with variations to hide their true nature and there are people who hold that multilevel marketing, even if it is legal, is nothing more than a pyramid scheme.

There have even been charges by people like economist Thomas Sowell that the United States Social Security program itself is nothing more than a legalized pyramid scheme.

Concept and Basic Models.

A successful pyramid scheme combines a fake yet seemingly credible business with a simple-to-understand yet sophisticated-sounding money-making formula which is used for profit.

The essential idea is that the mark, Mr. X, makes only one payment.

To start earning, Mr. X has to recruit others like him who will also make one payment each. Mr. X gets paid out of receipts from those new recruits.

They then go on to recruit others. As each new recruit makes a payment, Mr. X gets a cut.

He is thus promised exponential benefits as the "business" expands.

Such "businesses" seldom involve sales of real products or services to which a monetary value might be easily attached.

However, sometimes the "payment" itself may be a non-cash valuable.

To enhance credibility, most such scams are well equipped with fake referrals, testimonials, and information.

The flaw is that there is no end benefit.

The money simply travels up the chain. Only the originator (sometimes called the "pharaoh") and a very few at the top levels of the pyramid make significant amounts of money.

The amounts dwindle steeply down the pyramid slopes.

Individuals at the bottom of the pyramid (those who subscribed to the plan, but were not able to recruit any followers themselves) end up with a deficit.

Too strong for too long and I can't be without you, baby. And I'll be waiting up until you get home cause I can't sleep without you, baby.

2010-04-13T15:09:00.007+08:00

This story is tittled Voodoo Girl and is written by Tim Burton.

This poem is taken from the book, The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy and Other Stories.

Her skin is white cloth,
And she's all sewn apart;
And she has many colored pins,
Sticking out of her heart.

She has many different zombies,
Who are deeply in her trance;
She even has a zombie,
Who was originally from France.

But she knows she has a curse on her,
A curse she cannot win.
For if someone gets too close to her;
The pins stick farther in.

You can read more poems by Tim Burton as well.

The poems are pretty emo frappucino though.

Hahaha.

For some weird ass reason.

I am actually very sleepy now.

Despite sleeping the whole of last night, I am still falling asleep in the office.

Zzz ...

I think I am too stuffed.

Drinking Coca Cola doesn't help because, it made me shiver.

I think it's either the drink is too gassy ataupun, office niie memang sejuk lahh kott.

After Kak Jiji texted me about eating Indian Rojak, tetiba tekak niie macam terasa ada air liur stuck lahh pulak.

Hahaha.

Anyway, thanks to Cik Mahani, the place to be at for Indian Rojak is at Ayer Rajah Food Centre.

Siapa nak bawak aq ?

P.s I miss you Has.

When can we go on a double date and take banyak-banyak gambar ?

Hehehe.

Call me, dear.

Please !

Anyways, these are some overdue pictures.

Hahaha.

There are some censored pictures, okae ?

I shall be a good boy and sit beside new mummy Hani.
Her stomach is like a cushion, so very comfy.
Hehehe.

Mehh siniie Kakak ajar.

Look at my shiny tights.
I feel like a rockstar in leather tights.
Eyy, but never wear leather pants when you know you have kids running around like mad in the room.
They will keep falling down.

Nurin panas lahh !

As Liyana and new mummy Hani indulges in some adult like conversation, SynntaClaus spoke to Nurin like a 5 year old kid.
"Nurin, how to play uhh ?"

Mama, Nurin nak jadi model lahh !

I am so touching the flat screen plasma TV !

Wahh !
Who is the person go and take picture of me uhh ?!!
The flashlight so bright one.

Nevermind, I play Auntie Nita's HP first.
Later, then I touch the plasma TV.

Why Kamala ?!!
You not happy uhh !!!

Wahh !
I-Touch uhh.
Nak touch.
Please, Qistinea.
Stop hogging it.

Okae.
Maintain, dok.
Walaupun tengah makan dan lagi sikit air dalam mulut tuu nak tersembur.
Maintain senyum.

Fine !
No I-Touch to touch.
I camera whore lagi bagus.
See mummy.
I am so cute !

Hehehe.
Later, I will rampas the I-Touch from Qistinea.

If Alya can camera whore, I also want to camera whore.
I want to be model !!!

P.s These captions are added by me, SynntaClaus, for the fun of it.

So, korang semua jangan marah uhh.

Sesaja je kacau korang.

Tetapi, overall, it was an awesome lepak session.

Let's do this often !

Why are some girls so naive ?
He didn't unbutton your blouse to see.
A better view of your heart.
Ohhs, yeah.
Can't blame you for trying.

Monster, how should I feel ?

2010-04-12T12:49:00.007+08:00

I think I could understand.

How it feels to love a girl,
I swear I'd be a better man.

I'd listen to her,
Cause I know how it hurts.

When you lose the one you wanted,
Cause he's taking you for granted;
And everything you had got destroyed.

5 things.

1.) I need to find a new job soon.
His response : Yes, you need a new job.
Pasal, you belum confirm lagi.

2.) I'm worried that one day I will live in darkness in my own house.
His response : It will help if you get a better paying job.

3.) I need you to tell me you love me.
I don't need you sympathize with me.
His response : No answer given.

4.) I hate the fact that you are always thinking I am being unfaithful to you.
When the fact is I never am.
His response : Why must I think you are unfaithful.
Is it me or is it you ?
Isn't worrying about you being unfaithful, good ?
Cause, indirectly, I don't want you to go or something.

5.) I have lost all motivation to live.
His response : Find it back lahh.

Honestly, the fact is, you don't have to worry about me leaving.

I wouldn't go.

No matter how many countless time you have threatened to break up with me.

I've been through it all with you.

But, on most days, I worry about you leaving me.

My gut tells me that you just would.

At the end of the day, it'll happen as though I don't matter anymore.

The flame is still burning brightly, but there is no more spark.

2010-04-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

I was out with him today for Opeh at Kembangan and delicious claypot chicken rice.

He brought over his laptop but, I've lost all my ability and desire to Facebook and Tweet.

Checked my Nuffnang account and played Sorority Life on Facebook.

And that's it.

Instead, I played some stupid sushi making game which was uber addictive on MiniClip instead.

Nothing much happened.

For the disclaimer : You can lie to everyone else but you can never lie to yourself.

Boy, don't try to front. I know just what you are.

2010-04-10T23:06:00.006+08:00

Is it okae to keep something hidden from someone you care about in order to spare their feelings ?

If you are unfaithful to your significant other, is it selfless to keep it a secret so that they don’t end up hurt by what you did ?

Is it selfish because you know that they will leave you if you confess ?

Is guilt really a small price to pay for short term happiness ?

The trip to Johore Bahru with him was exhausting.

We took the bus from Marsiling MRT Station and bloody hell !

It was as though we were vacuum packed in a can of sardines.

The journey took about 3oMINUTES to 45MINUTES or so.

What do you expect ?

It was the weekends and droves of cars were literally moving 5 inches or so.

It's better that being stuck.

We had lunch at Kenny Rogers.

I swear the waitress was dumb or something.

Hahaha.

We wanted to order the "Tangy Chicken Spaghetti" but instead of spaghetti we wanted to change it to fusili.

You know the pasta that looks like rambut kerinting.

Hahaha.

But, the idiotic waitress said we will garnish it with parsley and tomatoes.

Eyy, hello.

Fusili lahh !!!

Hahaha.

I think we tawaf-ed City Square a million times but we couldn't find what we wanted.

I bought for Nour Ryiesha a Winnie the Pooh baby gift set and it's really cute.

I can't wait to pass it to her.

On Saturdays, City Square mall was packed with mat rempits.

You know crazy ass-ed biker boys and their annoying tak cukup umur girlfriends.

Hahaha.

Honestly, I find some mat Malaysia weird.

Misai cukur siiaks.

Eee.

Anyways, at last he found a pair of DC or maybe Osiris, I so cannot remember.

But, it was very nice.

Maybe, your feet wouldn't stink so bad with the new shoes.

We headed to Diesel next as they were having a 70% of selected items and he got himself a shirt.

Me ?

I was slightly embarassed and too pissed off to get anything and you know why ?

Because I couldn't fit into any single pair of jeans !!!

Bloody hell.

I even took a pair of khakis with size XL and mak datuk.

Ketat pe.

Sumpah mangkuk.

So, I decided that maybe, I'll just get a maxi dress.

But, you know what ?

Malaysia doesn't have a single boutique which sells maxi dress.

And, so ...

I only bought make ups and accessories.

Hampa siiots.

We then proceeded to eat somemore at Food Junction at Level 5.

Which sucks, by the way.

Jangan makan tau.

The lor mee is super duper cair nak mampus.

Anyways, we went to Body Glove where he shopped like mad and then we proceeded to walk somemore.

My feet was aching mad but we walked somemore while carrying a lot of shopping bags.

Next stop, J.Co Donuts & Coffee.

Woo.

Hee.

Okae.

Technically, I made a mistake when I assumed that 170 goes to Marsiling MRT Station.

So, we alighted instead at Kranji MRT Station.

And, for the first time after so many years, he is taking the MRT.

And, here I am.

Home.

So shagged.

I guess that's all.

My body aches.

Don't hope for any pictures cause there isn't any.

Good night.

To the disclaimer : Please take away this grief. Lock me up and throw away the key.